That girl named Ana

Chapter 5

It's been a week since Angus kissed me, and I haven't seen him since. It's been hard to see him, since I haven't been in school. Since I told my mom about the starving and Ana, she's been watching me like a raven and taken me to the psychiatrist. I haven't really talked to the women, who's name I still forget. I've gained a bit of weight because of the eating I've been forced to. I still process to throw up at night, where I also work out secretly. My mom let's me go on walks with her, because the doctor has told her to, since it would be hard to gain so much weight with a eating disorder like mine. Bullshit.

Today, is the first day at school since the kiss. Walking through the hall of rumors and whispering, I regret not acting and staying home. But the thought of seeing Angus, and getting him to explain, makes it all worth it. 

I walk into the classroom and everyone gets silent. I know they talk about me, but  I just hoped they would act like the didn't. I've always been dreaming about being popular, but not this way. Not being the girl with an eating disorder. Because thats just lame, like me. 

I sit down in my seat and find my pencil and notebook, and begin to write.

In this room of lies,

It feels like every feeling dies,

Eyes haunting me,

But there's nothing to see,

Because I'm gone.

I earese the text and throw the paper away. My head in hands, I hear a voice, I've been looking for. I look up and see Angus. His arm around Maya, kissing her cheek and smiling at her. His eyes meet mine, and even though the tears are blurring everything, I see more clear than ever. The smile on his face disapears and mine shows. I smile at him, while packing my things and getting up from my seat. Telling the teacher that I'm going home because of not feeling well, getting a knowing smile, a smile saying 'I know you're going through hard times'. I walk out of class and hear shoes following me. I don't turn around when I hear my name, but get forced to when two arms touch my shoulders.

"Grace, listen to me. It's not real, it's an act and I don't even like her or anything, I swear!", the excuses fades into the empty air with no feelings in them. I don't listen, but keep smiling.

"Grace? Do you even listen? Why are you smiling like that?", he says and thats when I open my mind and speek.

"Because I know that I was right from the start, and what girl doesn't love being right?" I giggle and turn around. The tears start falling, but I keep smiling and walking away.

I KNOW IT'S SHORT AND SHIT BUT I AM SO BUSY.