My First Love's Goodbye

(1) I have moved on

Nasaan ako?

Lavander and yellow wild flowers... Sunset... Calming ambiance...

shooting ng Twilight saga???

Ang ganda naman dito.

"Czarina..."

Nilingon ko ang nagsalita, nandito siya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero parang may magnet at tumakbo kami papalapit sa isa't isa.

"Mahal kita!" Hala, bakit ko sinigaw yun? Ramdam ko bumibilis yung tibok ng puso ko.

Niyakap niya ako at bumulong. "Mas mahal na mahal kita, Czarina."

Nag-e-echo ba o paulit-ulit niya talagang binabanggit ang pangalan ko? Para naman akong nasa Koreanovela...

"Czarina..."

"Czarina..."

"CZARINAAAAAAAAA!"

"CZARINA M. GONZALES, Gising naaa!!!"

huh?!? I opened my eyes. It was just a dream. Unusual. It's been a long time since I last dreamt of him, I can't even recall the last time I did.

"Ate Czarina. Wake up! It's Thursday!!"

Hinarap ko na ang makulit at nag-iisa kong kapatid pero nakahiga pa rin ako. By the way, she's Miku Gonzales.

"Yes, I know it's Thursday. Bakit mo ako ginising? It's my rest day!"

"That's it. It's Thursday so you have to get up. Now." -Miku

"Are you even listening? I just told you that it's my rest day. Wala akong pasok!" Nagtaklob ulit ako ng kumot.

"Hay nako ate! Matanda ka na talaga. Nalimutan mo bang March 18 at Thursday ngayon?" -Miku

"What's so special about that?"

"Let me remind you... that you have a thursdate with ate Sabrina!"

Oo nga pala! Nalimutan ko! Kaya bumangon na ako at... Hala sige, Ninja moves!

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Finally, nakasakay na ko ng kotse ko nang biglang kumatok si Miku.

"Ate, hatid mo na ko sa school."

"Nakalimutan ko rin bang Graduation Day mo ngayon? Why are you wearing your toga?"

"Graduation practice pa lang, ate. Nalilimutan mo na ba uminom ng memory supplements?"

Hindi ko na siya sinagot at nagdrive na lang ako dahil alam kong sa asaran lang to patungo.

Ang bilis naman ng panahon. Dati rati, toddler lang itong makulit kong kapatid. Ngayon, nakasuot na siya ng toga... about to graduate from elementary.

Wait a minute... ang aga aga kong naghapit. Ang dami kong nalilimutan! Nalimutan ko na rin palang ipakilala ang sarili ko. I bet you know my name, kanina pa nababanggit noh. But anyway, I'm Czarina M. Gonzales. 24 years old. I work in my family's business. Umm... that's all I can say to describe myself. What else? Ayun! As you can see, makakalimutin din ako. Hehe. Dalawa lang kami ni Miku at 12 years ang gap namin. More details about me? Wait for the next chapters...

Bumaba na si Miku ng kotse at dali-daling pumunta sa friends niya. Ang cute nilang tignan na nakasuot ng puting toga, I can see a bright smile on her face... full of excitement na finally after six years in elem, she's about to enter a new chapter. The highlight of her teenage life: High school life.

Sana ganyan din kasaya ang mukha ko nung huli kong sinuot ang puting toga ko. :(

Hay nako, teka! Ano pa bang tinutunganga ko rito? Si Sabrina nga pala!

Now, I'm on my way to the mall to meet her. Syempre, it's my rest day. We agreed na we'll spend our spare times together. She's my high school best friend pero nagkahiwalay na kami nung college.

Magkaiba na kasi kami ng course, A.B. English siya... Business Administration naman ako. Pero kahit ganun, we kept in touch with each other until now. Inspite of our busy schedules, we manage to see each other. Mas matindi pa sa boyfriend noh? Syempre naman, 'cause she's my girl best friend! :)

"Finally, you're here." -Sabrina. Nandito na ko sa usual meeting place namin.

"Sorry." I grinned.

"Hmm.. You kept me waiting for 27 minutes. With that, you owe me a box of pizza." -Sabrina

"Uhh." I don't have the right to complain dahil talaga namang pinaghintay ko siya kaya eto na, manlilibre na nga ako.

We headed to the salon & spa for relaxation. This week has been really hectic.

"Sis, malapit na ang 21st birthday ni Ryan at uuwi siya sa Pilipinas. Double celebration yun kasi high school reunion na rin at sa resort ang venue." -Sabrina

High school reunion? hmm... Sasama ba ko? Why not? I don't want to be called bitter. Pero napaka- awkward nun. Makikita ko ulit siya.

Am I ready? Of course, I am. Hay, wala akong kawala. Magku-krus at magku-krus talaga ang landas namin.

"Hoy, sis! Ano? Free ka ba sa 24?"

I just gave her the I'm-not-sure look.

"Sis, wag mong sabihing hindi ka pa nakaka move on kay Kyle kaya ayaw mo?" Uhh, she knows me so well...

"huh? hindi ah! hindi lang ako sure kung free ako sa 24. Kyle??? That's so 5 years ago. I have moved on."

I have moved on...

I have moved on...

*kring kring*

•Phone call from Ronnie•

"Hello, nasan ka?" -Ron

"Salon with Sabrina. Why?"

"Just making sure you're safe." -Ron.

(^~^) That teasing look from Sabrina when Ronnie said that. uuh... -_-

Naka-loud speaker ako kaya naririnig din ni Sab ang conversation.

"Umm, th- thanks." -me

"okay, then. Bye. Umm... I... I love you." -Ron

"huh? ok bye. Baliw ka talaga! Pero thanks for the thought, Bes..."

After that I hang up.

Oo nga pala, yung tumawag sa kin si Roniel Prince Rossuello. He's my guy best friend since high school. Madami na kaming pinagdaanang dalawa pero look at us! Mag bestfriend pa din kami. Siya din ang nagsilbing knight and shining armor ko. Well, mahal niya kasi ako higit pa sa pagkakaibigan pero I told him that I don't love him more than friends...

Pero what did I just hear a while ago?

"okay, then. Bye. Umm.. I... I love you."

Eto na naman, nagpaparamdam na naman siya. -_-

Akala ko pa naman naipaintindi ko na sa kanyang hanggang best friends lang talaga eh. No more, no less...

Why?

...because I was in love with a guy back then...

a guy who broke my heart.

"hmm, siguro iniisip mo na naman ex mo nuh?" Nagulat ako nang biglang ilapit ni Sab ang mukha niya sa mukha ko. Ewww! Gross!

"Tsk! He's just my past, Sabrina."

Yeah, past is just past.

who is he?

Well, the name of the guy who broke my heart is Kyle Martel Valdez. He's my EX and my FIRST LOVE.

Cool isn't it?

He's my FIRST LOVE and my FIRST HEARTBREAK.

But I'm okay now.

As I said a while ago, I HAVE MOVED ON.