DROPS OF JUPITER ➣ JYATT

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jaeden || 9/13/17
hello to anyone who may be reading this, my name is jaeden lieberher. and, to start off this "diary" as my mom calls it, i'd like to say one thing.

my life sucks. i'm not even kidding, do you know how many guys i've been rejected by? oh right, i'm also gay. very gay.

i kind of feel like i'm starting this off like a cheesy book series for nine year olds, but i mean, what can i say? my life is a mess.

well, at least i actually have something to write about. school recently started, and there's this new kid. his name is wyatt oleff, i think.

wyatt has grown some popularity, and i mean, how could he not? he's honestly stunning. and yes, in that "like-like way."

this reminds me of a teen novel, where all the gay couples end up with each other and live happily ever after. except mine ends with rejection.

and i'm going to be the one facing rejection. unless a miracle from the sky came down and blessed me with magical unicorn powers.

again, i'm going to be the one facing rejection, final. it's not like i'm afraid of it though. i'm practically used to it by now!

wyatt has curly hair, and he's younger than me i think. i don't know, i'm going off of ages i've heard going around.

i got to have a short but somewhat meaningful conversation with him once. he likes stephen king novels and 80's movies, just like me.

he still says 'hi jaelen.' because i think he heard my name wrong when i first told him. i never really bother correcting him, it's cute.

he calls himself the 'wy-guy.' it's very funny. he seems to be hanging out with my friend, sophia, a lot.

sophia seems to like him. i don't know how much, but she does. i hope she doesn't have a crush on him, though.

today in school, i got to sit next to wyatt in science class. he touched my hand and asked to borrow a pencil.

i feel like i'm sort of overreacting but i got butterflies and tingles. don't you ever feel that feeling? i mean, i sound like a cheesy actor. have i already said that?

i don't know, wyatt isn't the hottest guy i've ever seen. i just feel some sort of force around him that draws me in?

i'm overthinking everything. i really can't wait until tomorrow to go back to school. and again, i never thought i'd actually say those words in the same sentence.

but i mean, it's anything i'd do for love. a love that usually i can never have.

a love that's just simply

off limits.