colour // phan

red.

"well, you see, colours can be associated with emotions. most of the time red is linked with anger, or violence."

"violence?" dan questioned, "w-why is that?"

"probably because the colour of blood, is red."

"oh."

the younger boy looked down. a million questions were flying through dan's mind, slamming against the walls of the skull and tearing down his walls of comfort, begging to escape because of the topic he never had once understood, and probably never will, which was such basic knowledge to so many people.

dan felt a slight lump forming in his throat. it hurt, his heart ached and stomach clenched because he had always felt left out, unable to connect, and no matter how hard he tried, he could never imagine anything close to colour. the idea seemed absolutely impossible and just made no sense. because he didn't understand.

"that's not what i think though." phil whispered, loud enough for dan to hear. the male looked at him, confused.

"what do you mean?"

phil smiled a little, even though he knew the other man wouldn't notice. he took a deep breath and looked up at the sky, eyes reflecting the bright moonlight as his eyes fluttered shut for a second, breathing out.

"when i see red, sure, my first thought is the idea of anger. but, then i think of other things," a grin broke on phil's face. "like, the flames of a campfire or a chimney fire, keeping someone warm. or the jelly ice-cream popsicle i always got during the summers of my childhood. and then i would smother it over my lips and pretend it was lipstick. it was kind of a joke between my friends and i." he let out a silent laugh before turning to dan.

"you know what else red represents?" phil smiled, the words leaving his lips barely heard.

dan shook his head, as his breathing hitched and a blush coated his cheeks because of the warm, tingly breath he felt on his skin as phil leaned in to whisper into his ear.

"love."

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i made phil a weirdo oops

stop emo shaming #s.a.d

(when i wrote this it was back when the dan and anthony collab on dans channel came out why didnt i publish it sorrYyYjdkdk)