My Younger Sister's Boyfriend

Chapter 7

"You think you love me? That's a big stretch from "We're not even together" Jess." 

I'm in such awe. He really just confessed his love to me in such an open and public place where anyone could've heard. This is so risky and wrong but I'm so happy, it's hard for me to keep a straight face and keep being mad at him after that.

"Yeah I know Steph but I've been feeling like this for awhile now and it's been killing me just keeping it in. I needed to tell you, I don't expect you to say it back."

I look at him while biting my lip to keep me from smiling. 

"Well if you love me then you should dump Arabella to be with me."

"It's not that simple Stephanie. Before I tell her we need to get everything else sorted. Like somewhere to live after she kicks us out, I'll need to get a proper job too so I can contribute for the rent. There's a lot of things we have to consider as well."

"Like how we might not even work out and it'll all be a big mistake? And you'll regret even telling Bells?"

He looks at me for a minute, processing what I said so he doesn't say the wrong thing. He sighs and runs his hands through his hair.

"It's not that I think we won't work... it's just that.."

"It's just what Jessi?"

Jessi turns around and looks at the long line of impatient customers behind him, he sighs and looks at me again and gives me a quick kiss on the cheek.

"We'll talk about it when you get home."

He walks off muttering under his breath. I sigh and put on my fake customer service smile.

"Next please."

***

"He loves you!?" 

Rachel looks at me with complete shock, neither of us know what to say about this situation or what to do about it. Never in a million years would I think that this... thing with Jessi would get to the point of love. Especially this fast. All my relationships in the past have never gotten this far, no one's ever been in love with me before; it honestly feels so amazing, now I understand why people care about it so much.

"What am I going to do Rachel, I never intended for it to get this far. Poor Arabella is head over heels for this guy and he... loves me instead."

Rachel bites her lip as she tries to think of the best answer possible to my situation.

"Well.. do you love him back?"

"Yes... No... I don't know! I've never been in love before Rach, how I do know?"

"Easy. The first guy I fell in love with was on my mind 24/7, I could never stay mad at him because I just thought he was so amazing and I honestly couldn't imagine a future without him. Every time he said my name I got butterflies and my heart felt like it was going to leap out of my chest. Whenever we kissed it felt like... lightning. There was so much chemistry between us it was undeniable. Do you feel that way with Jessi?"

I sit there and think over what Rachel said. Do I feel that way with Jessi? The first time we kissed I felt like we were the only two on the planet... there were definite sparks and there still are. I obviously care for him otherwise I wouldn't care so much that he's been dating my sister the whole time we've been together and I wouldn't be trying to pressure him to make us official. Do I love him? Is Jessi really my first love? That's a scary thought...

"I don't know Rachel. Maybe. I think I just need to take some time to figure it out."

"Then tell him that when you get home. Which you should do now, the faster you get it over and done with the better."

"Yeah, you're right. I'll see you tomorrow in class."

Rachel and I part ways and I hop into my shitty second hand car that I bought last week. I just sit there in the dark for a bit staring straight ahead, going over the different scenarios of whats about to happen in my head at least five times. If I'm not in love with him then why does it hurt me to think of the option of us ending things? It's the practical decision, he's not going to leave my sister and I need to find a nice man my age with set goals. It's time for me to settle down. 

"It's not that big of a deal Stephanie... there's plenty of fish in the sea..."

I start my car and drive to deal with the inevitable. I wonder how he's going to take it.

***

I walk into the same old penthouse that I've been living in for a few months now with my little sister Arabella and Jessi. It's gotten quite full now that the three of us all have jobs, we've been able to slowly fill the house with nice furniture and it's finally starting to feel like home.

"Welcome home from work," I look up from the floor to see Jessi in front of the dining table.

"You made us dinner?"

"Sure did, Arabella isn't coming home tonight. Something about her friend being in a crisis."

"Oh.. so we have the house to ourselves again."

He smiles at me and grabs my hand, giving it a soft peck.

"We sure do."

God I get so tingly inside when he does small romantic gestures like that, it makes it hard for me to want to ruin the mood and talk to him about serious things. 

"Jessi.."

"Yes gorgeous?"

Jessi slides up the sleeve of my jacket and slowly kisses up my arm and eventually makes his way up to my neck. The way he carefully and slowly places kisses all around my neck makes my knees buckle and my eyes roll into the back of my head. I do a slight moan of pleasure as he circles his tongue across my skin and softly sucks on my neck, leaving a slight hickey.

"We need to..."

"Shh, don't ruin the mood just yet Steph."

He moves his lips from my neck and crashes them against my lips as if I were his life support. This kiss is so much different from all of our other kisses, it's so much more desperate... as if it were the last time we would ever kiss. He pulls away eventually, taking a break to get some air.

"That was..."

"Intense?"

"Yeah, just a bit." I smirk a little and sit down at the table, waiting for him to join me.

Jessi quickly gets the hint and sits down in the chair next to me, fiddling with his fingers.

"Alright Steph... as I said before, I love you."

"I recall you saying something along those lines."

"Great... I love you but... I just don't think we'll work. You need someone who can provide for you and someone who's ready to settle down. I'm still only nineteen I can't do either of those things right now."

I slowly nod and look down at the table, holding back the tears that are trying to break free.

"I understand Jess," I look up at him, letting the look of hurt swallow every inch of my eyes, "But please tell me you're not going to continue to date my sister. It's not fair on her."

He looks into my eyes, noticing the pain and the tears building up in them. We're both on the same page, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

"I... I don't know what I'm going to do about Bells right now. I love her too Stephanie. Can you understand that?"

"If you don't tell her about us then I will Jessi. She needs to know."

"She'll hate you just as much as she'll hate me. Why do you want her to know so badly?"

"Because it's not fair on her Jess. Do you know how much this... thing between us has been eating me up inside? It wasn't my intentions to fuck her boyfriend behind her back."

Just then we both hear the front door slam and turn around to see a shocked Arabella behind us.

"You what!?"