My Younger Sister's Boyfriend

Chapter 8

Arabella's P.O.V

I saw it coming from the first day I introduced those two. There was so much sexual tension between them it was too obvious, I knew I should've been more careful around her. Some sister she is. 

"Arabella please just hear us out."

She's panicking, I can tell by the look in her eyes. I get why Jessi would sleep with her behind my back, she is attractive but she's not as attractive as me. I was prepared to give him the world and he just threw it away for Stephanie... not that he'd ever leave me for her. He's got better judgement than that. 

"I'm listening," I say in the most monotone voice I can muster. I'm used to Jessi hurting me, he's done it so many times. But never I have I ever experienced this kind of betrayal from my older sister. 

"This was a huge mistake, Jessi and I never intended it to let it get this far... it just happened."

I see the slight reflection of pain in Jessi's face when she calls them a mistake. Does he not believe it was a mistake? Does he actually have feelings for her?

"Is that what you think Jessi? Is this thing between you and Stephanie a mistake?"

He looks at me, knowing that I've caught on and that there's no use in lying to me. I've seen this look come from him too many times, and every time I see it I get more and more hurt by it.

"It's... not a mistake Bells. I love Stephanie but I love you too."

I scoff.

"You don't know what love is Jessi. If you did you wouldn't put me through all the shit you do."

I walk past the two people that I used to consider people I could trust and head straight to my room, locking the door to make sure neither of them follow me in. I put my back onto the door and slide down as I cry my heart out, I should've listened to all my friends when they said he'd never change. But I'm naive and see the good in people no matter what they do to me. I'm so heartbroken and lost for words, I have no idea how I should react to this.

Should I kick them both out or should I just dump Jessi and let him be happy with Stephanie? I don't want her to have him but he wouldn't have fell in love with her if he was completely devoted to me. I know the right thing to do is to let him go and try to find someone who's actually worth my time but I've only ever wanted Jessi. No one else. Do I even try to forgive Stephanie for this? I just don't know what I should do. 

I grab my phone and dial the first number I can think of.

Jessi's P.O.V.

"Just a mistake huh?" I look at Stephanie, trying to keep my cool after her butchering my heart. Never have I ever been so hurt by a sentence in my life, I've never cared about a girl thinking that what we've done was a mistake... until now.

"Come on Jess... we'd never work out. We're so different."

I slowly nod my head as this tsunami of pain washes over me. I would do anything for this girl and to find out this is how she feels about us just kills me.

"Yeah... maybe you're right. You're too old for me anyways"

"Don't you start Jessi. I get that you're hurt but don't you dare start putting me down."

"Why not? I want to make you feel as shit as me. I want to hurt you the way you're hurting me, so you can understand how it feels."

She looks at me and says nothing for what feels like eternity, neither of us know what to say or do next.

"You know what, fuck this Stephanie." 

I grab my jacket and bike helmet and storm out of the apartment, slamming the door behind me. I storm out of our apartment complex and go straight to my bike.

I can't believe how things just unraveled before my very eyes, I hurt a human being who didn't deserve it and I ruined our relationship for a woman who doesn't give two shits about me. I fucked up big time and I have no idea on how to fix it.

Do I even want to fix it? I mean don't get me wrong, Arabella is a beautiful human being who deserves nothing but the best, and I'm obviously not that. I love her but I think the love I have for her is more like a brotherly love. I want to protect her and make sure she's nothing but happy. But I just can't see myself being with her anymore.

What Steph and I had was a real connection and I can see us becoming something serious. Never have I ever felt these kinds of feelings for another human being before and it scares me. God does it fucking scare me. I've been known to be the guy who'll never settle down because my commitment issues were that bad. 

But Steph... God Steph... 

She makes everything seem possible. She sees something in me that no one else does, she actually believes that I can be something more than this scared little guitar player in a band that most likely not going to get anywhere. She believes that I can turn my life around and become everything I've ever dreamed of. And it feels fucking amazing to have someone believe in you that much. 

But she doesn't love me. I'm nothing but a mistake to her. That's all I'll ever be, a fucking mistake. 

A burden.

A child.

I need to prove her wrong. I need to get her to see that she's the only one for me. I need her to love me as much as I love her. I need her. I crave her.

I'm going to make her mine. I'm not giving up on her.

She is my future.