My Younger Sister's Boyfriend

Chapter 9

Jessi's P.O.V

She's looking right at me, with those beautiful brown eyes. We sit here in silence as I take in every single perfect imperfection. God, when did I become so soft? She does things to me that I can't explain, I don't know why I do half the things I do for her. But Stephanie... she's something else. I don't know what makes her so different from the rest... she just is. Everything she does is breathtaking and she doesn't even have to try. We've been sitting here for a good 15 minutes now, but I can't help but admire her.

"Earth to Jessi," she takes a short sip of her coffee while breaking my thoughts, "what'd you want to talk about?"

I nervously take a sip of my water and clear my throat, thinking of how to start this confession.

"Forgive me Father for I have sinned."

She looks at me for a minute and starts laughing out of confusion.

"What are you talking about?" 

"Well that's what everyone says when they have to confess something... right?"

"I mean... you're not wrong.."

She looks at me again while softening her expression.

"What are your sins dear child."

I helplessly grin at her.

"I met this woman through a girlfriend... and it was purely love at first sight. I have never seen such beauty in my life or felt such a strong connection with another human being before. She's different and I like it. She means everything to me but I messed it up by making her my... mistress I guess."

She looks away from me while fiddling with her fingers. Unsure on how to reply to something so... real. Her facial expression is as blank as an untouched canvas, I can't tell what she's thinking. Here I am just pouring my heart out to her and she's just... sitting there. 

She takes a deep breath before speaking.

"Jessi... I feel the same way. I truly do. But I can't do this to my sister. Bells is hurting because of our actions, can't you see that?"

"Of course I do Steph but she'll get over it eventually. You deserve to be happy too."

"Jessi... I just don't think someone as young as you can.. make me happy."

I lean back into my chair, I feel as if I've been shot and stabbed a thousand times in my chest. Is this what it feels like to be heartbroken? Is this the pain that Arabella felt each and every time I let her down?

"I'm sorry Jessi. I truly am, it's just..."

"Save it Stephanie." I say sharply, cutting her off.

I get up and throw some money on the table.

"That should cover the bill.. I can't be here right now."

I storm out of the coffee shop trying to not do anything too stupid.

Steph's P.O.V.

"Jessi wait!"

I feel bad for saying what I said to him knowing that he's never been so real with a girl before. I love him and I want to be with him but I can't. I can't do that to my little sister, I already hurt her so much by sleeping with him. I can only imagine what it'd do to her if I started dating him a day after she found out we were having an affair. My little sister means everything to me, even if I don't act like it sometimes... it kills me to know that I played a part in her heartbreak. 

I sigh and get my phone out, Jessi just stormed out and I'm already worried about what he's going to do. He's never even been like this with Arabella, I can't even imagine how hurt he is feeling right now. Maybe he'll crawl back to Arabella out of spite or fear of being alone, just thinking about that makes my stomach churn in disgust. I really do love him, I just... I already hurt Bells too much. I'm her big sister, I'm supposed to be comforting her from this kind of stuff.

I swallow my pride and start to dial Arabella's number. I have to make things right, I just have to. After I enter her number I press the call button. The phone just rings and rings, it feels as if a whole decade has passed while waiting for her to pick up. Until finally I hear her upbeat voice.

"Hey man stealer! What's up??? Calling to rub it in my face that you actually won something?"

She's being extra bitchy. Great.

"Bella I am so sorry for doing this to you. I promise you I never intended to do this to you, I was just... jealous. You had it all and I had nothing. I just wanted to accomplish something." 

She laughs as if I was a comedian that told the funniest story in the world.

"Stephanie I knew about you guys from the start."

What?

"What do you mean? Why didn't you... say something?"

Could she actually have known from the start? Why did she act so hurt if she always knew? Maybe she wanted this to happen... to ruin my reputation so she would always be viewed as little miss perfect..

"Lets catch up and I'll tell you all about it. I'll send you a text of a place and time, I gotta go now. Ciao!"

She hangs up, leaving me in disbelief. This is definitely going to be something else.