Indebted

Chapter Sixteen

It was very quiet, the room dimly lit. I am comfortable and warm opening my eyes as the bile gathered in my throat leaning over the edge I vomited in a black bucket that he had placed close to the bed, my surroundings unfamiliar, tranquil and serene.

"I am sorry sweetheart." squeezing my hand tightly trying to draw all the pain away but he couldn't no one could.

Cold sweat burst on my skin, my palms, across my neck I felt dizzy closing my eyes.

"Mummy come back please." I whisper forcing back a spring of salty tears.

"It's okay baby." squeezing my hand tighter until I could feel the pain ricocheting through my left arm but it didn't help I scarcely registered the pain, my body had grown numb, my heart bleeding.

"How" my mouth so dry, my voice hoarsely. I am terrified laying here looking up at the ceiling vaguely aware that I am naked beneath his quilted spread.

He handed me a bottle water but I merely knock it out his hand, it tumbled on the bed to the floor.

"Answer me dammit."

"Your mother went into a sudden cardiac arrest, the doctors did what they could to revitalize her but nothing helped."

Goosebumps rose all over my body and I couldn't help shaking. I had not given much thought to how I should die since living had been my main goal and death the farthest thing from my mind, now Karen is gone what better way to die if not at the hands of the person you care about, that ought to count for something.

"Kill me Nickolai for I have nothing left to live for." facing him tears burning my brown eyes.

I leaned forward missing the bucket vomiting up from my churning stomach onto his feet.

"Kill me please" it shouldn't be hard for he has killed in the past and he did shoot me back at my grandmother's cottage in Monticello yet I felt him cringe, his face contorted in what could only be pain.

Nickolai whined smoothing his expression with little effort, he couldn't quite hide the agony in his eyes, it mirrored my own.

"No Emily" releasing my hand running his fingers through his damp hair.

"I want to die please" I say desperately "Grant me relief from this pain." sitting up the covers slipping from around my body, I was indeed naked, scared and torn.

In an instant his hand is wrapped around my throat. He doesn't squeeze but the threat is there, a dark gleam flickered in his eyes. I could feel the violence within him and I wasn't terrified.

"You know nothing about pain Emily. Do you really want to die?"

I shake my head.

"So be it" my eyelashes fluttering as he crushed my mouth with his bruising my lips with a fierce kiss, pulling away almost instantly.

Nickolai gasp my throat squeezing firmly pulling me off the bed"You really shouldn't have push me." his voice razor sharp.

He dragged me across the thick cream carpet to a wooden panel door, violently he punched in a code unlocking the door dragging me inside.

The light flickered on casting a subdued light across the room and to my surprise the room was bare, decorated with only the same thick cream carpet and a wooden chest. A rich, red curtain hung across the wall of the small room facing the door.

He released me removing a long key that hung on the wall the door clicking shut. There was no escape and frankly I didn't want any, I needed relief from the pain crushing my soul.