When Scars Become Stars (on hold, sorry)

x finding jeremy x

O.o

I stared at my Dad, and then the girl with blonde hair who said she was called Cassie. She was pretty, and she was nice. She kept holding my hand though, like she was my girlfriend. I couldn't have a girlfriend though, I was only 10.

"When's Jer coming?"

"He's not," Dad mumbled. "Cassie when is your Dad getting back?"

"A few hours," she sighed. "He's making an appointment for Alex at the hospital for tomorrow,"

"What?" I groaned. "I don't wanna go to the hospital! They smell funny!"

Dad looked at me and shook his head. I wanted to know why he was acting different, but I didn't want to annoy him. Maybe he was missing Jer as much as I was. Well, nearly as much. I missed Jeremy more than anyone in the whole world.

"Why do you miss Jeremy?"

I looked at Dad and shrugged. "I just do,"

"Yeah byt why?"

"He makes me better," I said simply. "He helps me. He makes me not bad,"

And it was true, I guess. I was bad, Jeremy made me better. I was a sin, disgusting, just bad. And Jeremy made me better. I know it hurt, a lot, but if it was going to make me better then I shouldn't stop him.

I just wished he'd stop making it hurt as much. Why wasn't I better yet? I just needed Jer to come over so I could get better. I needed to get better so he could stop hurting me. So Dad would love me. So Mom would-

Wait, Mom?

"Dad where's Mom?"

He shook his head. "Not now, Alex."

"But-"

"I said not now!"

"Trevor," Cassie murmured. "Don't shout at him. He's confused,"

"He's fucking delusional! Convincing himself he's 10,"

"I am 10!" I cried. "What does delusional mean?"

"It means bad,"

"Oh," I murmured. "I need Jeremy,"

"No you don't! Stop saying that! Jeremy hurt you! Jeremy's dead! Fuck, ALex! Just shut up!"

"What's going on?" A voice came from behind me. I looked towards the door and saw a man, who looked a little like Cassie. (ahahahaha, i almost put he looked a little like coffee :L )

"Who are you?" I asked.

"I'm Cassie's Dad," he said gently. "I'm your Dad's friend,"

"Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!" I smiled. I stood up to go and speak to him but backed away when another women stepped out. "Um...hi,"

Cassie's Dad knealt down in front of me. "Alex, this is my friend Anna. Anna just wants to ask you a few questions, is that ok?"

I shook my head. "No I want my Dad,"

"Alex you can sit with me once you're done with them," he mumbled.

"It's ok Alex," Anna assured me. "I just want to ask you some questions, ok?"

I nodded.

"How old are you?"

"10,"

"Who do you live with?"

"My parents,"

"Do you have a best friend?"

I thought a little. Jeremy maybe? "Jeremy,"