i was thinking of writing my story but the insiration goes as soon as it comes. today was supposed to be productive till i learned the news that a fellow classmate had passed due to her sickness she was born with. when i found out my heart sank. she was my second friend at my high school. it was the first day of freshman year and i didnt know anyone so i had no one to sit with. she saw me wandering around the hallway and asked if id like to sit with her. i said yes and we talked about music and she sang me a song by ed sheeran. my favorite song to be exact. she didnt know though. it made me very happy. sometimes when i was sad she would ask if i needed a hug and she would give me one. she was very loving and she left a huge impact on me. she was the one of the first people to tell me to make music if i wanted to. she said i could do it as long as it came from the heart. she told me that if i ever made it to write a song for her and i told her i will. even if i dont make it. she said to always have faith. then she would say a cute pun about how its her name. i remeber in my 8th period class 10th grade she would make these really cool presentations. i really liked them but i wouldnt show it because the rest of the class didnt and they thought they were annoying. i feel so terrible and i wish i could take back time and tell her how much i loved them because i truly did. i remeber she was always happy she would never show her sadness although she did mention it a few times i regret not helping. she would always help me with mine.
although i cant thank her now i really am thankful she was in my life because if it wasnt for her i wouldnt be aspiring to make music and i most certianly wouldnt be writing this. she pushed me to write she signed me up for this contest that would help me write a story in a month although i didnt finish it still helped me keep writing. so thats it i guess.. i wish i could write more and finish writing all my feelings but i cant since im being interupted and its making me frustrated. so ill write more later maybe.-9:29
