With Love, Cassie

♡ 5

CASSIE'S POV

"Cassie? You're still there?"

Should I tell her about what I saw that night? It's hurting me so bad to keep thinking about it. But I have to tell Becca. I can't keep this to myself all the time.

"I saw Jason kissed Stacey."

I finally said it. Yeah. After few days I've been keeping what happened that night.

I tell Becca every detail of the story. This may take hours but I know she wouldn't mind. She's a very good listener, and she's the only person I trust. I know she will help me overcome this situation.

Becca was as surprised as me, knowing Jason will not just kiss someone that easily. He doesn't just kiss someone, especially Stacey, who he knew only since summer.

Plus, if Jason really fell for her, he would have told us. Never did he keep a single secret from me and Becca. He's always open and honest.

I remember in middle school, Jason started dating Alana Smith, a transferred student from UK. It was his first girlfriend and also his first kiss. Too bad she had to go back to UK a year later. Since then, Jason never dated any girl, or even.. kiss.

From the moment I saw them kissing, thought to myself, maybe I still don't know him enough. Even after all this time we're together, there are things I may not know from him. I felt like I'm the bad friend here, for not knowing his true feelings.

I felt like I was so selfish, thinking that the world revolved around me. Thinking that Jason, who has always been there for me these years, will love me the same. Thinking that I will get what I want.

At that time I could feel my tears rolling down my cheeks, for my hopes had been crashed. I stepped back and found my way out of Monica's house. I went straightly to my house, locked myself in my room and cried myself to sleep.

I never felt so worthless.

"Cassie.. I wish I could hug you right now. Just.. don't think about it too much okay? We can't always expect someone to love us back, can we?"

Yeah, Becca's right. If we truly love someone, we shouldn't ask more. Love is a powerful thing, that we don't want anything in return. We just love a person, and that's all.

From now on, I should get used to it. I should let Jason happy with whoever he is. I'm the bestfriend here, remember? I should prioritize his happiness and not be a selfish person.

I have to move on.