The "Nerds" Secrets

Info ( rewrite sorry)

So just a reminder for refresher .

Alex: nerd used to be sarcastic, happy , and some what popular but that changed a few years ago.. No body knows because she hides it well with fake smiles and laughs ... She doesn't have many friends and the one she had turned on her and made her life a living hell..

Elliot: Alex's brother , gorgeous, tall but there's a down side .. He's a cocky ass hole , hes just a straight up dick. He's not so... Nice to Alex but he doesn't care she's just another person..

Mandy: best friend that turned on her..she's extremely pretty everything every guy would want ...except .. She stabs you in the back then lies about it.

Alright so there might be more descriptions in the book later on but those are the main ones. Again TRIGGER WARNING there is:cussing ,cutting , possibly sexual content , abuse and so forth ..

This is my first book please read it ... Or don't that's fine too I dont wanna pressure you .
Welp ill get started then .
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ALEX'S POV

I wake up to my beautiful alarm blaring through my room, I wave my hand in the air trying to find the alarm. I soon realize I actually have to get up to turn it off. I get up accidentally shoving my puppy over in the process.

"Sorry babe" I whisper pressing disarm on my phone , turning around I see my self in the mirror . My scars on my arms , stomach, and legs blurry but still visible staring for a bit . My eyes glance over my body and a look of disgust finds its way to my face , I turn back around checking my phone.

113 messages
26 Snapchats
102 Instagram dms

I take the risk in opening my phone and instantly regret it , the words flowing onto my screen stabbing through me . Not able to stop reading I continue looking through everything, a tear slips down my cheek.

'You whore just kill your self already you fat bitch'
' keep cutting maybe it will get you somewhere '
'No body loves you and no one ever will! '
'Do us all a favor and kill your self nobody wants to see your ugly face and body '

I look over seeing my dog looking at me ( he's a pieballed winnie) , he waddles over to me lays pressed against my leg. I pet his head lightly and kiss it, standing up. I walk towards the bathroom that's connected to my room turning on the shower . I take off my clothes and step in the shower warm water relaxing my muscles. After a good 30 mins I turn off the water and step out if the shower . I grab my towel wrapping it around my body walking back out to my room seeing my dog still asleep .

" lucky bastard" I say squinting at him, I remember my glasses after a while walking to my night stand grabbing my glasses slipping them on my face . I walk to my dresser grabbing some undergarments, putting them on my body, I grab some black jeans and one of my dads long sleeved band tees. I half ass dry my hair, then hang my towel on my bathroom door nob. I hear my stomach growl letting me known I should probably leave my room, I make my way down stairs deciding to snatch my dog off the bed which he didn't like and whined at me .

"I'm sorry babe I love you" I kiss his head and continues to walk down the stairs, humming quietly . I walk towards the back door opening and putting him down. I watch him run around then goes to fridge.

I look over some of the food in there, some if the text messages come into my mind. I shut the door walking away but grabs an uncrustable for lunch because I need some energy. My dog barks from the back yard letting me know he's done and wants to come inside, I walk over closing the fridge , opening the door letting him in.