Unexpected Events ¦ Chanbaek

Facts

As you may have noticed: I didn't understand shit.

I read some more comments but my brain didn't get the hint. So I opened my Twitter and checked SMTOWNGLOBAL.

And there I found what I had been looking for...

But I actually didn't really want to find it. Not really. But how should I have known that I don't want the truth until I saw it with my own eyes?

'Baekhyun was involved in a heavy car crash earlier this night. It has been confirmed that the driver who hit Baekhyun's car was drunk.'
That was posted 14 hours ago... I decided to check allkpop next.

'EXO's Baekhyun in critical condition'
This post was 12 hours ago... I needed more recent information, so I decided to check Soompi too. And there it was..

'Shock for the K-Pop industry: SM Entertainment confirmed Baekhyun's death at 01:00AM KST. Drunk driver still not found.'
This was only 2 hours ago...

It was everywhere.

The top trending hashtag was #staystrongexo... EXO-L's had created it to show support and love towards their idols and to express their own sadness. They probably took Luhan's comment on Instagram as an inspiration...

A/N: Chanyeol's comment; not mine.
/If you don't remember anymore who Luhan is: He's one of the 3 members who left EXO. The three commented on Sehun's post in author-nim's last chapter. Their names are Luhan, Kris and Tao.\

I thought I could hear my heart break into pieces. Like a cracking sound. And then a sound that you could compare to the sound of a mirror when it hits the floor.

The next thing I remember is that I ran to the bathroom and threw up. The thought of never hearing my bias's voice, never watching his broadcasts, never seeing him live on stage at one of their concerts and not meeting him again made me feel sick.

Yes, I met the one and only Byun Baekhyun once at a fansign. We even took selfies together. I'll never forget these few minutes we shared. They're my most precious memory. And now I'll make sure to keep them in my heart forever. They're all I have left of him as a person.

I don't know how long I've been throwing up but at some point I washed my mouth with cold water and broke down crying.

It took me extremely long to get myself to stand up and walk back to my bed. I felt numb. Nothing felt real anymore. Is it wrong that I didn't want to be alive anymore? Or that I had thoughts of finding that drunk bastard and kill him?

To my own surprise I went back to SMTOWNGLOBAL to read the updates I had missed since I had run to the bathroom.

01:45pm?! It has been two hours? This surprised even me. But I needed time to accept the facts.

I found myself starting to read SM's new posts:

'Kris, Luhan and Tao confirmed to attend Baekhyun's funeral.'

'Drunk driver arrested.'

'EXO exhibition in memory of Baekhyun: date set for April 17th'

An exhibition? I need to go there. I wrote it on a sticky note and walked to the kitchen, my phone still in my hand, and placed it on my fridge.

'EXO disbandment confirmed. More information in the interview with Suho: <link>'

I clicked on the link and watched the interview. Suho said that they all were heartbroken about the situation and since EXO only consists of 2/3 of the number of members they have had when they debuted in 2012 they all agreed to disband.

I knew this would be the end of EXO... A member's death or another member leaving the group is too much for them. They break apart. But the fans will understand. They'll continue existing in their music. And the fans won't stop listening to and spreading their music and support each member in their individual lives.

It took me another hour to get dressed and take a walk to the nearby shop. I had to buy a new diary.

Now I wrote down everything what happened. It feels good to have the feeling to have talked about everything with someone, even if it's just in a diary. But I don't feel good...

After arriving at home I didn't do anything for the rest of the day. I just sat silently at the table in my kitchen and stared at the wall. I went to bed even earlier than I usually do.

Now I'm lying in bed but can't sleep. How do you expect me to sleep? I decided to go see the doctor in the morning. I can't go to work in this condition. I'll break down crying if my boss utters one wrong word. And this will end up in me getting fired.

Good night, diary.

Normal POV:

I felt myself slowly drifting off to sleep. I already knew I wouldn't sleep well...