The Glitch [Gawsten] >Completed<

10: Positive Thoughts

The room seems breathable not the stuffy air like usual but nice, nice on our tired lungs.
Breaking away from his touch leaves an empty place in my heart it's not cold but it's some odd feeling I can't quite put my mind to.
It's not bad It's wonderful.
I miss the warmth on my dry lips. Very strange.
Everything seems okay in the world simply because for those three seconds when he touched me, Geoff was mine.

He was okay
he wasn't going to fade away into nothing who knows when.
Then reality slapped me in the face because we all know it's not going to be okay.

Now I have to fix this.

No words are said between the two of us after the unexpected kiss ended, although I wish he would say something.

But he doesn't, he doesn't say anything but it doesn't matter because now I have hope.

But you can never have hope withought fear.

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The day drifts away, it seems like it always does that.
Still neither Geoff or I say anything. Nothing.

We leave to go to the start tomorrow.
Geoff thinks we are simply visiting Jawn's place when really we are taking him to the start to read his own cure.
Who knows if this will work.

No matter what we have to try.

Positive thoughts this will work.

Otto is watching me across the hall from the bathroom he is putting on deoterant not to mention his shirt is not...on.

Even years after not being with him I still can feel an empty spot in my little heart for Otto.
Why does all of this have to be so complicated?

"We leave at 5:00 so get ready."
He announces sliding on his shirt then his overworn beanie.

I glance over to our cracked and mildly dusty clock that has sat on the wall's for years.
4:00 really only an hour to pack. Ugh. I trudge back to my room and pack a few T-Shirts, a spair pair of jeans, and a couple pairs of underwear.
I have no idea how long we will be gone.

Or if we'll even come back at all.
"Don't think that way Awsten, don't think that way" I whisper to myself.

I'm talking to myself now maybe I am going mad.

I grab a toothbrush and other random items around the house. I think I'm ready.

Will I ever be back to this house? Jawn has warned us how dangerous this is over and over but we've always looked passed his warnings.

What if we die?

We're fake will anything happen afterwords what will happen to our minds, souls? I'll risk it all for Geoff. Now that there is a chance of us being more than...just friends.
Like I cared anyways.
About my life that is.

I stroll around the rooms taking it in.
We'll be back positive thoughts.

Otto and Geoff wait patiently in the living rooms their backpacks ready to go. I guess this is it.
No we will be back.

We will.

We make our way outside into the mini cooper Otto somehow had afforded to rent. The cieling is scratched up and it smells like a dog gave birth in the backseat but that doesn't matter since I can sit next to Geoff.

Maybe he's already forgotten about the kiss. Maybe he already faded today and got rid of that memory.

The road flies by swiftly I lean my head against the cold-ish window.
Geoff only a foot away.

He wraps himself up with his pokémon blanket and I ignore him he needs to sleep.
He needs to rest that precious little head.

Then I feel the soft blanket cascade over my body.
We are sharing the yellow pikachu blanket I didn't expect this.

I look over at his face and see a wonderous smile. It's a shame his eyes are closed because they really are gems.

I close my eyes too

The silence is nice. Calming.

I nearly drift asleep as Geoffs half destroyed hand locks in mine.

He remembered.

He remembered last night.