lost and alone

the madness

I woke up from my dream and realized what I had done I saw that I was falling to my death my whole life flashed before my eyes I was scared to relive those memories I didn't want to see my mom like that ever again anyway I saw a ledge half way to the bottom of the cliff and it had two path ways attached to it one going up to the top of the cliff and one going to the bottom. I was close enough to it so that I could grab it but as I did my body jerked down so hard that I swore my arm broke I pulled my other arm up to grabbing the ledge to pull myself up I screamed in pain It hurt so much even when I was up the ledge it still hurt. I started to walk down the path to the bottom holding my arm as it was in so much pain but not as much pain as when you realize that you betrayed someone and killed them. I replayed that moment over and over and over again in my mind I was scared at who I was becoming I was scared that I would never be able to be normal again. as I was walking for a while I came to a town and I settled in I also met a boy named Adam, Adam fouler he was a nice boy fair skinned with brown hair and brown eyes we had only talked a few times bef..........before...........

*flashback*

I was walking through the small town but as I had been so hurt by my hand jerking the ledge and breaking that I needed a rest I found a nice shade spot under a tree when I started to fall asleep because I have been walking for what seems like hours and it was also hot and hot weather makes people fatigued. I had only fell asleep for what seemed like 2-7 hours when it was only 3 I slowly opened my eyes so I could get adjusted to the light when I looked over and noticed a boy checking over my arm. because I was asleep tho the pain didn't hit me but right when I opened my eyes the pain started to rush through me like a waterfall. I screamed in pain which made him shoot back faster then you could say ouch I screamed at him and said

Lilly: WHAT WERE YOU DOING DO YOU JUST WALK UP TO EVERYONE YOU DON'T KNOW I MEAN DID I ASK YOU TO BE IN MY BUSINESS?

which mad him jump back even more and that made me feel bad I mean he looked like a nice guy so I spoke again

Lilly: oh uh omg I am so sorry I mean you just startled me I mean I didn't expect that when I woke up someone would be right there next to me I mean it scared the hell out of me but you probably kinda already knew that right? right anyway my name's Lilly what's yours

he just kept looking at me weirdly at me then he realized that I had asked him a question and spoke up

Adam: oh uh yea I I'm Adam

then he got up and stretched his had out for me to get up he took my good arm and lead me to the doctors then after the doctor had check out my arm and put it in a cast I was lead out by Adam my eye sight started to become blurred I was slowly slipping into the madness again but I didn't want anyone to see me like that but it was to late it was pitch black I wasn't myself all I could here was the faint sound of screaming and crying the a

"kachink"

the sound a knife mad e when it was cutting through things then I heard my name be called and that was ultimately what drew me back to reality all I saw when I got back was Adam standing there with a horrified look in his eyes I tried to explain but the words just got away from me the lump that was in my throat was getting to be the size of a golf ball all I could do was run bit as I started to a hand grabbed my wrist pulling be back and into a hug I was scared I didn't know what to do I cried and cried and my tears never seceded yo come it was like I was a fountain in the middle of a park and I was spewing out water by the minute. I broke free from the hug I was scared I didn't know what I was going to do I had no one to give me advise anymore because my mother and brother had only come to me to help me see that my fight was not over I was so stupid at the time for thinking I could do this I can't I just can't. I was way over my head what with half my family dead and my dad still alive out there watching and waiting for the eight moment to strike I was scared what if he pick the time to strike when my guard was down what if he dose it while I am asleep I was scaring the crap out of myself I had to get my mind off it I had to get away I had to be alone that way no one would ever get hurt ever again.