Me and Gray never spoke for the next few days.
Whenever we walked past each other the air was thin, and neither of us spoke a word. Heck even look at each other.
I spoke to Ethan a few times, but he was hardly ever here and always with m- with her.
He knew I was going, and he seemed disappointed, but so was I. He knew the situation between me and gray, but not the reason. I told him I didn't really want to speak about it and he understood.
The truth was I do. I do want to speak about it. I need to tell someone, yell about it!
All my feelings were getting bottled up inside and I hated it. I couldn't even speak to Tamzin.
As soon as I told her about it, she didn't really seemed phased? I mean I was so upset to leave her, but it's not forever! We can arrange to meet up, easy.
She's became such a huge part of my life, so has everyone since I've been here! It was like a whole new life for me.
Was I ready to leave yet?
I wasn't even sure myself.
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Thursday came around so fast, it was scary. I had packed up all my things and all my bags were waiting by the front door. I was sitting in the kitchen with Lisa, Sean and Ethan.. I hadn't seen Grayson the whole day, which in a way sort of upset me.
Although I was upset with him anyway, it was a different kind of sadness, more like disappointment? I was in deep thought until a car beep broke me out of my trance.
My heart started to beat as my head shot up and I looked at everyone else. They all have me reassuring looks as Ethan carried my bags to the door for me.
He dropped them as I came to the door.. my parents were just on the other side.
I reached for the handle, took a deep breath and opened the door.
There was my dad helping my mum out the car.
I walked slowly down the path and they both turned around.
My eyes dropped down my my mums now round belly.
I looked back up and they were both grinning at me.
They opened their arms and I ran to both of them.
"Hey sweetie! We've missed you" my mum hugged me tight, along with my dad.
"I've missed you too!"
All of a sudden, going home didn't seem like such a bad idea.
But my thoughts were always going to be with Gray..
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*6 months later*
It was a few weeks till Christmas, and we had the tree up with all of our decorations out, and the house smelling like cinnamon.
Me, my mum and Dad were all snuggled up on the sofa watching Bambi, while Evie was fast asleep in her baby bouncer.
"Anyone want a drink?" I asked as I got up and stretched out.
"Hot chocolate please" my mum said
"Coffee, thanks" my dad turned his head and smiled at me.
I nodded and walked into the kitchen and got out three cups, and filled the kettle up and waited for the water to boil.
While I was waiting, my eyes gazed to the window, where I saw a couple, about my age, all wrapped up in their hats, scarfs and gloves with their arms linked.
They were laughing together, the girl was quite tall and and blonde hair, and the other had brown styled hair, and had a dangling earring, and a-
Wait,
Grayson? Meredith?
I looked away, not believing my eyes, and turned back around to the window..
But the earring had gone, and the styled hair.
He was just some random boy I'd never seen before, and so was the blonde girl.
Why was I thinking of Grayson? I put him behind me months ago.
The kettle boiled which snapped me out of my thoughts, but I shook it off like it was nothing.
Probably just tired? Yeah most likely.
I slowly walked into the living room and have my mum and Dad their drinks, and went back into the kitchen to get mine, then back in the middle of my mum and Dad to watch the film.
They both smiled at me, my mum stroking my hair, and I just smiled to myself, but then Grayson popped back into my head.
Why did I just hallucinate Grayson and Meredith?
Everything's been going so good lately, I'm back at my old school where all my friends were, my grades are back to how they used to be, my mum gave birth to my little sister, and it's flippin Christmas soon!!
I can't afford to let myself get distracted, not now.
I just need to finish this last year of high school,
Without, the distractions..
Without Grayson.
Sorry it took sooooo long for me to upload, and for leaving you all on a cliffhanger!
But anyways, hope you like it:)
-court x
