Yet again like any other night, there i was in my room on my laptop watching random stuff on youtube, whilst floating in the back of my head was just Grayson and Charlie with all these emotions that i was trying to ignore.
But, it didn't really work.
I shut my laptop closed and flew back onto by bed, huffing all of the air out of my lungs whilst doing so. I looked around my room, bored and confused.
I miss Grayson. Why i was all of a sudden feeling like this, i don't know? I think deep down i never stopped but i just pushed it so deep down, as far as i could, but it just bounced back up after all this time.
Maybe it was guilt for spending all this time with Charlie? Having another boy come into my life in that way just makes me feel worse for leaving Grayson.
Sometimes i wish i could go back to before i met him, before i went there. I look back at the old me, and compared to the person i am today, i'm two totally different people. He changed me so much, but i learnt a lot from him. It may not seem it but i definitely feel it.
All of a sudden i let all of my emotions out and a tear rolled down my face. I miss him.
I miss Gray, no one made me feel the things he made me feel. The way he raised goosebumps all over my body from one touch. The way he made my heart flutter like never before. The way he ma-
'Text message from Charlie'
I immediately wiped my eyes and sat up from the sudden noise coming from my phone. I looked down at it and saw Charlie's name. But i felt nothing now.
Just looking at when Graysons name used to pop up on my phone my heart would always beat that little bit faster. But i don't get that with Charlie.
I know we aren't anything 'special' at the minute. But from day one with Gray it was immediate, i don't get the same vibes with him.
"Hey, what you up to this evening Olivia? Fancy getting a bite to eat? x"
To Charlie-
"Hey, um not much. I was thinking of staying in tonight, don't feel too good. See you tomorrow?"
Just keep it short and sweet liv. but all of a sudden i got a text back straight away.
From Charlie-
"Oh no:( want me to come to yours then... i'll bring fooooddd? x"
Nonono. He's too clingy. I'm not used to this, Grayson used to take ages to reply, and was never this clingy... not to begin with anyway.
To charlie-
"Oh no that's fine, really. I'll see you tomorrow. Goodnight, Charlie".
With that, i put my phone down and i opened up my laptop and watched mean girls, best film ever.
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The next morning i woke up from my alarm going off, with my laptop at the bottom of my bed, still turned on as i had fell asleep half way through, typical.
I swung my legs over the side of my bed and stretched, then sighed. Just another day...
I got ready for school, had a washed and got changed and made my way down stairs to get some breakfast, where dad, my mom and Evie were all sitting down... looking sad?
"Morning guys.. you okay?" I asked, creeping into the living room.
"Olivia, sweetheart-" My mom paused, and looked over to my dad for reassurance, and back to me.
"It's Lisa, Dolan.... She's had an accident"
My heart dropped. Lisa had an accident?! What sort of accident?!
"Well.. is she okay?!" I asked needing to know answers.
"We're not too sure, but Sean is looking after her at the hospital. Meanwhile, Grayson and Ethan are going to be staying with us"
Oh
My
God.
GUYS!!! I've missed you all sooooo much!! i completely forgot about writing this story from at least a year ago. I'm gonna start writing again when i have time as i'm at sixth from and it's super busy. Though i'll try and write in my free sessions to get through them a little quicker.
I know it's not a long chapter but i just wanted to publish ANYTHING! Probably half of you won't read this again but for those who do.. thank you for the love and support
Love you all,
-court x
