Drabbles

I'm Here, Queer, And Full Of Fear

I've recently listened to the soundtrack for Dear Evan Hansen again for the millionth time and it really made me think in a way. No one deserves to feel as if there's nothing left for them but the fact that so many do (sometimes myself included) is honestly heart shattering. A hypocritical statement, I know, but my point is still there. The two songs that hit me hardest were waving through a window and requiem. The concepts and story telling behind these just make me ache inside and leave me crying but in the best way music possibly can. In Requiem it feels as if they've already mourned before he passed. Musicals like this and rent really make me think about how I live my life aimlessly not going after what I want. Music is an outlet for me (as it always has been) and it makes me think and heals me in rough times. It can hurt me sometimes because of the truth under it. Painful but lovely.
All music has meaning to someone in some way.

7-16-18