In love with my bully

Chapter 1

"I'm ugly or I feel ugly" I told the stranger

"Oh honey! Don't say such things about yourself! You are very beautiful!!" She says

I tell her "Thank you," but I just wanted to scream and cry.

Why. Why do I have to be this way. My Mom says I'm beautiful. 

She says I'm being selfish, saying this random nonsense.

I start to believe her and smile.

But then he pops into my mind. 

My bully. The one I'm so hopelessly in love with.

Weird right? Being in love with someone who hurts you so much.

He calls me an ugly slut, who doesn't deserve to live, and it hurts, so much. I cry myself to sleep sometimes.

Why? Why does he hate me. I've done literally nothing to him.

Whenever I see him I get butterflies. But then I realize that he's just here to spat some mean words and walk away.

He's never hurt me physically. But it's probably better than being hurt by his words.

I was on a run because he called me fat.

I'll admit, I was a little chubby. But not fat.

That's when I suddenly stopped running because I was getting frustrated.

Am I really that ugly?

I mean he's always saying I am.

Before I could stop myself I went up to a old woman, who looked about in her mid 60s

And of course she lied to me too.

I continued with my run until I felt the need to run back home.

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When I got home I went to my bedroom and looked into the mirror.

I want to be strong and not let his words get to me.

Tomorrow I won't let him see me cry, no he's going to see me hold my head up high and prove him wrong.

From this day and forward, I will not let Hayden Collins get to me. Ever.

Oh and that's a promise.

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Idk how I feel about this. I know this is short but I promise I'll make the next chapter a little longer. But I hope you enjoyed chapter one :) Until next time 😘