(OKAY YALL THIS IS AGAINST THE RULES BUT I CHANGED THE POV BECAUSE I WAS STRUGGLING WLCODKAKW)
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the exit gate of the college was almost unfamiliar to evelynn , since she hasn't left the campus in months.
She pulled her phone out of the back pocket of her black skinny jeans while examining all of the trees planted. the sunlight shining through the trees branches and leaves made a calming pattern on the cream concrete.
9:03 AM
gracie:
Evelynn! meet me at the park, it's important.
you:
on my way.
gracie:
you're actually coming? thank you!
im glad you're getting out of your dorm.
see you there, i love you :)
read 9:12 am.
She sighed as she shut her phone off, realizing she had agreed to leave her room. She hadn't left the campus for almost a month now, due to depression and social anxiety. The only reason she left today was to avoid the questions about her long-sleeve shirt, hiding her marks.
she inserted her keycard opening the the gate to the world outside of the campus, when she was suddenly interrupted.
"wow, long time no see loser." a boy with blonde hair and vivid green eyes teased as he shoved her, causing her to hit the ground.
evelynn's keycard remained in the gate while her bag had spilled over, revealing anti-depressants, a pencil sharpener, and a wallet.
a sharp consistent pain fell over her hip. she ignored it, scrambling to pick up her stuff. she scanned the area around her, making sure nobody saw the things that had fallen out.
all she saw were friend groups talking, two boys tossing a football back and forth, the blonde boy walking away with his group of friends, and a boy with big round glasses looking directly her way. he had a concerned look on his face, but as soon as she looked at him, he looked back down at his book pretending like he wasn't looking.
she stuffed the escaped things back into her black leather bag, stood up quickly and leaped towards the gate. she grabbed the keycard and dashed out of the gate, not looking back.
tears started forming in her eyes, not from the pain, but from the embarrassment and way she's being treated. she hates herself. she hate being herself.
she threw her hood over her face as she continued to cry, and make her way to the park.
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after ten minutes of walking, she had finally made it. she felt as if she was suffocating in the sweatshirt. the heat was almost unbearable, but she couldn't risk people seeing her wounds. Her hip was also in great pain, but that war bearable, considering she puts herself on pain constantly.
She lifted her hood away from her face and looked up at the bright blue skies and the green leaves of the trees swaying with the summer wind. It was quite beautiful. Looking around there are a bunch of children running around with the biggest smiled on their faces, and parents chatting and eating from straw baskets or coolers sitting on a red and white checkered blanket. There were couples sitting by the artificial waterfall holding hands and laughing with each other. The flowers colors were vivid and eye catching. there were patches of purples and reds and blues and yellows. Other patches were whites and oranges. The sounds of the waterfalls and birds and children and laughter mixed together and created a beautiful sound.
evelynn pulled out her notebook and started writing.
Evelynn's Dumb Definitions
what happiness sounds like: laughter, birds singing, children playing, wind blowing, and water constantly running
she closed her notebook, put her hood back on, and continued walking further into the park.
"Evelynn!" a familiar voice called, causing her to whip around to where it was coming from.
There Gracie was, jumping up and down with the biggest smile on her face. Her excitement to see evelynn made her smile a bit too.
she started closer to her, soon seeing another figure standing right next to her. Evelynn paused, and slid her bag strap off of her left shoulder, and swung it around to her right.
she dug through her bag to find a mask her sister had given her before she left for college. It covered your nose, mouth, and chin, and she didn't want to show the stranger her face.
"im too ugly." she thought.
she pulled out the black piece of fabric out of her bag, and positioned it over her mouth. once it was secure, she started walking towards Gracie, while Gracie was running towards her.
When their body's crashed into eachother with a hug, evelynn collapsed on her back to the floor, trying to play it off as if it was because Gracie knocked her over. but it was really due to her hip. it was throbbing and when they crashed into each other it triggered a great amount of pain that was unbeatable for a few seconds.
"Hi! how has your summer been so far!" Gracie said as she stands up from the floor hug and reaches her hand out to evelynn.
"it's been actually really good!" evelynn lied.
"why do you have a sweatshirt and a mask on?" Gracie said concerned and confused.
"I-" evelynn hesitated to answer, but was cut off by another voice.
"hi! my name is Tom. What's yours?" the voice was higher than expected, and very cute. The British accent startled and attracted evelynn.
She looked up at the figure and realized who "Tom" it was.
They both froze.
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SORRY THIS IS SHIT BUT I LIKE WRITING SO IF YOU LIKE IT GREAT IF YOU DONT IM SORRY
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l o s t || tom holland
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