The Uncertainty That Is My Life

it was only just a dream

I wake up with the Sun shining through my Windows. I don't even have the energy to close my curtains or just to get out of bed. All I can do is just think of what happened yesterday afternoon.

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I have news for you. The reason as to why you blanked out is because your blood got to its boiling point, making your heart have a little spazm fit. It eventually stopped for a moment but restarted when you were in the ambulance. You were unfortunately in a coma, but luckily only for a week. Tests have been taken and I'm sorry to say, you have Cancer.

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I can't even think about anything except the fact that I have Cancer. I'm just lying in my back, which still aches, and I'm contemplating on whether I should just lock myself UN this prison I call my bedroom and die from starvation; or leave my bedroom only to find the world waiting to kill me slowly yet surely. I only have energy to get off my back and sit up. I have my back against my diamond-studded white headboard and I look to my left. On my side table lies a razer and my phone. I reach over to the one thing that can help the depressing situation that I have found myself in. I pick up my....phone.

What? You thought I would cut myself? Child please, just because I have a depressing current situation doesn't give me a reason to take my life away!

*Said like a true inspiration *

I check my phone to see if I have any notifications

25 Whatsapp messages Jason
10 missed calls from Jason
05 instant messages from Jason
29 missed calls from Tyler [don't answer]

I am just irritated by this situation that I am in.
I can't believe I have cancer. I can't believe Tyler is such an ass, wait I saw that coming. I can't believe that Jason cares about me so much. I just want to get away right now.

I get up from my bed and take a quick shower. I quickly dress into my denim skirt,  blue vest and bomber jacket, not forgetting my blue New Balance running shoes. So I like blue? It's a pretty cool color!

I run out of my bedroom with my hair combed into an afro-bun ." Hi mama", I say as her face beams when she sees me." Morning honey, how did you sleep. You blacked out at school and we had to fetch you."

I have these flashbacks of yesterday. Me in that bed. The bed that no one ever wants  to be in. The bed that you lay in, waiting to find out if you're going to die or not. Finding out whether something is wrong with you. What could have possibly gone wrong with me? What could have possibly been the reason to me having cancer?

"Mama, what's wrong with me? Why do I have cancer? How did it even happen? Why does it have to happen to m-"

"Wait honey, who told you that you have cancer. That is quite absurd, why would you think that?"

Am I missing something?!

"MA, I have cancer. I know that you're trying to help me forget about it but it's unforgettable. Ma, just tell me what happened . we were in hospital yesterday and the doctor said that I have cancer. Why do I have cancer?" I get that she wants to protect me, but this is a little annoying.

"Nat, you don't have cancer. If you do, I was definitely not there to hear the news, and neither were you. May E you just had a bad dream. I did call in a doctor but it was a home call. The doctor said that you just blacked out because you're blood pressure was too high. Possibly because of a fight or quarrel that you may have been in yesterday, but it's definitely not cancer. Honey, I'd tell you if it were true. I promise"

" Or maybe you're trying to do the same thing that Doctor Whittier did to Madeline, lying to her her whole life. Except your lie would be that I'm not sick, but really I am. Are you really trying to pull that truck on me? Because if you are, I don't have a Carla or an Olly, so u would have to find one and run away to Hawaii with my Olly and see its National fish the p-something. Seriously mom, please don't do that. "

So I juts froze my mom, it seems luke she actually wants to laugh at me.

" Hahahahahahahahahhaah,  oh youre so funny honey!Firstly who is Madeline and Carla and Olly and Doctor Whittier? Secondly I would never allow you to go to Hawaii with some stranger, especially a boy. And lastly what are you talking about? "

"How could you laugh at me like that. Firstly those people are the characters from Everything Everything, my favorite novel, but not so favorite movie. Secondly I would run away, so you wouldn't know until I was gone. And lastly I'm talking about me having cancer! Mom what is going on."

"Honey I think you just had a really bad dream. You do t have cancer, " mom says as she pulls me and hugs me closely,"  are you okay? "

" Mama, shes2just being a drama queen. Not long from now she's going to pull out a camera and say 'You've got-got!'. Don't believe her MA", it's always nice to know that my brother thinks of me like that. Hint the sarcasm.

" Shut up Junior, this a conversation between A and B so you can C yourself out of it", I say my cool diss as I gesture the alphabetical letters A and B as my mom and I. I feel so slick right now. You're so dumb. If I'm dumb that makes you dumb brain!

"Honey, who is brain?",  I need to stop doing that talking out loud thing, "Should I take your temperature?"

"No ma, I'm just going to lay down. I think it was a bad dream."

"You know I once had a bad dream that I had an annoying little sister. Then it came to me, it wasn't a dream, it was real." Always with the insults this brother of mine. I roll my eyes and go up the stairs. So I really don't have cancer. Then I really had a bad dream, oh thank you Jesus Christ. I just need to lay down. Seriously!

Thank you to all that still read this book. I just had a serious writers block, like serious writers block. If you decide to delete this book, I don't blame you. My laptop also broke after it returned from the Laptop Repair Store. Yup, you heard right. They were supposed to insert Microsoft, yet they broke me laptop and they don't know how. Cue in the "aww's"  and "shame's". I know, I know! Anyway, please do the most and vote or delete the book, your choice honey. Please Leave any comments, like seriously any comments guys. Do the most and leave suggestions as well, help me help you read an awesome book. Thank you again, yours truly - me🌸🌹🥀🌺🌻🌼🌚