Rooming with Him

7: Im going down

Me: "GET THE HELL OFF ME!"

Jackson: "you are her best friend you shouldn't be beating her up"

Me: do you know how many times I got backstabbed by my friends?... Is that no well maybe before you start bitching at me you should get your damn facts straight.

I pushed him out the way and walked off. While I was walking I got stopped by Logan.

Logan: that wasn't cool max

Me: you know I don't get you

Logan: what?

Me: I don't get you. One day you like me the next you don't

Logan: I like you max but that wasn't cool

Me: really? Is that why you stopped me is to tell me that wasn't cool what I did. Because I just heard it so if you are here to bitch at me I don't need it.

Logan: I'm not here to bitch at you. I wanted to ask of we are officially going out again.

Me: no we aren't.

Logan: why

Me: I need to see if I can still trust you and I need space right now

Logan: just give me one more chance

Me. I need space

Then I walked off. I headed up to the dorm I left my stuff in the door step. I grabbed the bags. I unpacked then I took a shower. I wore black capris leggings with a gray knit cardigan over my tank top. I grabbed my phone and headphones and headed to the rooftop.

I needed to clear my mind. I opened the door that leads to the roof top. Then I walked up the steps. Once I got up there I put my headphones in. I stood close to railing gripping on to it while looking out to the distance. I thought for a while. Then I decided to climb up on the wall and sit with my feet dangling down. Then I went to look at my phone. I had about 32 messages. Some were saying: "you are a fucking whore" go die" "you just think of yourself" "you are a slut" "no one care about" "go kill yourself no one will care." You self centered bitch."

Usually this stuff didn't bother me but this time it was. I started to cry. I tried to tell myself I'm better than this I'm better than them. But it didn't work. When I was in my thoughts and still crying. Someone walked in the door. I turned around. It was Logan.

Logan: what's wrong?

Me: I'm absolutely perfect

Logan: what is wrong.

And right then I just lost it. I was crying. No wait I was like crying a whole fucking river. It was bad.

Logan: come here

We were sitting on the floor now.

Logan: what's wrong

Me: I don't know what I did wrong

Logan: what do you mean.

Me: I made my brother leave. I make everyone hate me. I just can't win.

Logan: you can't win them all.

Me: I just ruin everything.

Logan: no you don't

Me: maybe they are right.

Logan: maybe whose right.

Me: the people saying I should die and that no one cares maybe they are right.

Logan: they are absolutely wrong. If you die I don't know how I would live.

Me: but no one cares about me.

Logan: I care about. Your mom and dad care about you. Your sisters and brother care about you.

Me: not my mom or brother.

Logan: they care about you trust me.

Me: I just hate it right now

Logan: it may not seem like it will get better but trust me it does.

Me: thanks for cheering me up.

I wipes the dry tears away. I clean myself up.

Logan: no problem.

I get up and I walk back down the stairs. I went to the bathroom. I'm assuming that girl new I was coming in here. Why I assume is because there is red lipstick on the mirrors saying " Maxine Walters is a skanky lying whore" I just ignored it and wiped it off. Then I cleaned myself up.

I then went back to my dorm. While I was walking to my dorm I got stopped by a group of girl. I'm guess they were the ones sending the messages. Jamie was in that group.

Jamie: hello skank

Me: are you talking to yourself.

Lacy: was that an insult

Me: no bitch it was a compliment

Lacy: she complimented you Jamie

Jamie: lacy that was obviously a insult stupid

Me: not a smart one you got there.

Jamie: she may not be smart but she is.

Then Jamie yelled now. Then Brittany came out.

Me: Brit

Brittany: don't just don't

Me: your with then again

Brittany: yes but it's ok me and you are no longer friends

Me: what do you guys want

Jamie: pay back.

Then she and Lacy pinned me against the wall. And Brittany got everything she wanted. She got pay back. While she was punching me I tried to get out of their grip. But Logan walked up.