Broken // Bughead

Chapter 11

jughead pov:
a few hours earlier...

..."the thing is though, i think since the day we met i've loved you, probably even before then. it's like i've always felt this connection to you that i can't quite explain. almost electric but it calms me. i don't know. the only reason i thought i loved archie was because it was almost like i had to, yanno? the cliché stereotype of the best friend falling in love with the boy next door, trying to ignore her feelings for her other best friend, who was helplessly in love with her. it sounds like the plot of a bad movie. and the girl and the boy next door get together, and the other best friend falls for someone new. but i don't want that ending; instead, i want coffee dates with you and more sweet kisses and more hugs and more of that safe feeling i get around you. i want us." at first, the voice startled me. it was like electric, or magnetic. the voice was soft and sweet, but it was terrible at hiding so much emotion. finally, i look up to see the owner of the voice. i recognised her, but oh boy had she changed. she looked as though she hadn't slept in days, her hair was messy and her eyes wee red and puffy, presumably from crying. but still, she was beautiful. betty had always been beautiful. next to her lay a boy who seemed unconscious. he had black hair, with bags under his eyes to match. his skin was pale and thin, like paper. i think the phrase "white as a sheet" would be right to describe him. he looked fragile, like china that had been shattered and was only being held together by glue from a school glue stick. my eyes drifted down to the iv that was seemingly keeping him alive, there was also a heart monitor, beeping at a steady pace. what really surprised me were the long, thin scars going vertically down his wrists. but i was more shocked to see that the shell of a boy in front of me was jughead.

  i couldn't believe it. he had tried to kill himself. and only betty was here. where was archie? where was the other raven haired girl? what was happening? then something weird happened. a thought creeped into my mind, one that i probably should've had by now. why am i here, in the middle of this? who am i, and why is jughead always here? my whole body freezes. why don't i know the answer to any of these questions? betty suddenly starts running out of the room, and can i just say she looks great when she runs. wow she looks amazing. if jughead could hear my thoughts though, he'd probably kill me. then again, he cant, and i'm not even 100% sure i'm really here. but then it dawns on me. i am here. my body is here. my consciousness is here. they're just in separate parts. they're in separate parts because i am jughead. ive been living in his memories for so long, perhaps too long. now everything is coming back to be. i'm filled with relief; betty does love me. i've needed to hear her words for so long. i've missed her. i've missed her so, so much. i need to get back. i reach out for my seemingly lifeless body, expecting to just five right in, but nothing happens. i try again, scratching and clawing at my face, leaving no traces of me behind. i walk around, pulling at the medical equipment, desperate now to get back to life but still nothing happens. until i reach out to my heart monitor. then it all happens, it happens so fast i can't see it. i am electrocuted, shaken to the ground while the steady bedbug of the machine stops and turns into a high pitches squeal, lasting for what seems like forever. people flood into my room to save me. they try everything. i even see a heart defibrillator come in. this is insane. i can see my heart monitor going back to its steady pace again, thank god i'm alive, after everything i still need to let betty know that i love her, that it isn't her fault. i'm still not in my body, though. i need to get back.

as if by magic, betty renters my room. she looks tired, thoughtful maybe. i see her pause, walk over to me, and whisper in my ear something. its strange, i'm on the opposite side of the room to her, to me but i can still hear what she whispered in my body's ear. she said, "i love you, jughead jones". at that moment i knew i was gone. i walked over to her, to me and started crying over my body. somehow i knew, this was it. this was the last time she was going to speak to me if i couldn't get back. she turned to leave and started walking away, me still weeping over my body. then something even stranger happened. i don't know how, or why, but i felt an actual real tear slide down my invisible cheek, and saw it land on my own eyelid. i don't know how, again, but all i remember is waking up in my body. my first thought was betty. i sat up, and said what i could manage, though my throat was very dry i managed to say, "i love you too, betty cooper, but i was meant to say that first."

AN: AHHH UTS SO CHEESY AND STUPID AND ALL OVER THE PLACE IM SO SORRY OH WELL ANYWAY THIS IS THE LONGEST CHAPTER YET AND IT TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE AND SORRY AGAIN FOR THE NO CAPITALS BUT I UPDATES YAYY! im gonna try and finish this soon, as i'm going on holiday in like a week but there's only 2 chapters left. yikes anyway for the next book i write im actually going to finish it before publishing. im not going to write a riverdale thing next, im thinking more bts if anyone knows what that is but after that maybe i'll do something related to this?? although i'm not sure how maybe ill do it about juliet idk if you're reading this comment what you want okay bye sorry for any mistakes i didn't even edit this :/