How Do I Love A Thug .

Getting to Know

CJ's P O V

When I told Kayla everything I knew about Ma , she was crying & everything but at least she got over it . She can't be crying all the fucking time damn ! Shit I know she 15 & all but the got a damn child & even tho it wasn't by choice she still here ! Plus she Rey be 16 . & I'm not Rey buy her a car for her to go fuck it up & cry about it ! I told her as long as she under MY wing as a lil sister she don't never have to work . & she agreed . I plan on getting her , her own house after all this crazy shit between Ma settle down !

When Destiny called Marc "Daddy" thaa shit caught me by surprise . I was kind of happy Destiny liked him already since him & Kayla was seeing each other & he was going to be around . But I was mad as a bitch ! I missed my baby & she ain't even want me . I wanted to spin kick the shit out of Marc ! The crazy part about it is this
Nigga don't care that she called him daddy . Shiddd I wouldn't even claim MY child ! I wish TF I would claim somebody else's ! Kayla don't like when I say that buh I Don't Give A FUCK !

After me & Kayla's Discussion I was on my way to my bitch Sammy's house . But while I was driving I called Rello . I needed him to keep a look out for the rest of them niggas & Ma . I'ont know whaa she planning on doing to me or them but I needed to . I run this empire & ain't SHIT destroying it ! Not even the bitch who birthed me . PHONE CONVO ;
Me ; Ayoo
Rello ; Yo !
Me ; You still on the look out ?
Rello ; Yea yo .. Why ?
Me ; Shit . Just needed to know frl . Find anything let a nigga know damn . You been low key
Rello ; Hell yea a nigga need more evidence & shit !
Me ; Ayo I feel you
Rello ; Yo how my BestFriend doing ?
Me ; She cool , her cry baby ass good yo buh look I'm Rey handle some shit with Sammy buh imma hit you up later ,
Rello ; Thaa neck ! Buh aredd Cool .

Kayla's P O V

All of what was happening was happening so fast . Ma ? I couldn't believe she paid for me to get rapped . For whaa ? A grandchild she would NEVER see again ? I was mad I wanted to yell , kick , punch , smack , I wanted to hurt something someone ! I got down off the counter & Stormed outside . Yea I know I seem bipolar but all these emotions ! I was just so MAD !
I kicked all the chairs , & broke the mirror that hung on the wall near the tables , which I kicked down the stairs . My knuckles was bleeding & I was crying again .

Jamarcus came running outside . He didn't even yell my name , he just pulled me onto him & pulled us on the ground . We sat in the corner for 15 mins . My hand was hurting while tears were still falling . He pulled my hair out my face into a pony tail . He took my hand & looked at it . He pulled a piece of glass out of it and threw it on the ground . Then he looked back at me .
Jamarcus ; Can you stop ?
Me ; (Sniffling) Whaa do you mean ?
Jamarcus ; Messing yourself up , Crying , Breaking things , Running away , Not telling me your feelings , Pushing me away . I just want you to stop ... Please
Me ; It's hard . He ... CJ killed him & he didn't even care ! (Crying) Ma .. She paid Lawrence to RAPE me . Now .. She's trying to get CJ killed . & I don't want to lose you ! I can't lose you ! Your all I have & I don't want to scare you away with my feelings for you ! I .. I'ont want you to leave me !
Jamarcus ; I'm not going anywhere , is what I'm trying to tell you ! You got my heart & even tho we JUST made it official it has always been official to me ! You have always been mine . You just didn't know it . I knew of you before I knew you was CJ's sister . I might sound creepy but that's just how it is ...
Me ; (Wiping my tears) Really ? I'm sorry for crying .. I just be so confused & I learned how to not hit when I'm mad or angry so I cry .
Jamarcus ; Don't be sorry for crying Bae . I just don't like seeing you like that .. But this the life you chose when you moved in with CJ . You need to be hitting & punching shit when you get mad . Fuck what anybody have to say about it . Don't change for nobody . I loved that crazy side about you . Not this cry baby ass side .
Me ; (laughing) Didn't I tell your ass about calling me a cry baby (punching him) but Okaay . I hate holding in my feelings anyway . But I really am trying hard to not push you away . I am
Jamarcus ; It's Cool . I just want you to learn how to communicate .. Well with me anyways .
Me ; Okaay