Faithfully

I Won't Give Up

~the next day~

I wake up at 3:00 am and asks the nurse to not let my one in tomorrow saying I don't feel like associating with anyone today I got the news

"Are you sure, you don't even want your parents to see you?" Questions the nurse Wendy

" I understand that you want to be alone after hearing this but it's not healthy for you to push everyone away" states Wendy

" thanks but please can you just not anyone in,"

" sure, go back to sleep " Wendy says not convinced

I decide to listen to Wendy and before I know it the sun shine seeps through the window in the room.

It's about 9:15 and I decide to turn on the tv in my hospital room and a pirate show comes on. But then I start to remember when Seth and I were little and we dressed up like pirates together. I remember when he helped me with my first crush and also when he would played baseball with my dad and I. I remember when my dad taught me manners and when my mom first taught me how to cook make cereal without spilling the milk or letting the cereal fall to the floor.

I then realized that I was going to miss all of this I might not even remember this if I live. What am I going to do, how am I suppose to live without my best friend since I was little or my mom and dad who have raised me since u was a baby.

I cry to myself for the second time this week. Usually I'm really good I hiding how I really feel but I just can't stop. I really want to be strong for my mom, dad, and Seth but I can't

I drown myself in sadness and I lay on the hospital just sobbing.

I really didn't think my life could change so fast. before this week I would have been living my life as the popular jock in school but right now I only feel worthless. Utterly worthless. Is this how some people feel when they get depressed cause lately I've been feeling like this all day.

There was one thing I realized before I fell asleep, i realized that my dream is to help people like me in situations like me if I live

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Thank y'all for reading my story sorry for not updating but after today(Ben and Jerry's free cone day) and hanging out with my buddies it gave mee the encouragement to write so yeahhhhhh I'm dedicating this chapter to my homies Wendy, Minh, Michelle, and Claire