what does safety look like?
is it a shelter with food and water?
because i've grown up in this house
and never once did i feel safe
what does safety smell like?
your house? the scent of your pillowcase when you're away from home?
my pillowcase smells like my room, my room with the lock on the outside, my room with the broken window
my room infested in nightmares and lost hopes
what does safety taste like?
the only safety i've ever tasted sent a fire down my throat.
HOW CAN YOU DENY YOUR MISTAKES?
HOW CAN YOU LOOK ME in the eye and say you did nothing.
because you may have given me a house but you stole my home,
you do not take away someone's safety
you don't tell someone how to feel
what does safety feel like?
being embraced by the ones who love you?
my heart beats 900 times a day and each and every one
goes out to my lovers, my companions, the only people
who will be there when it all goes to shit
safety comes and goes
so hold on
