Don't let your crown fall

4. A 4am Phonecall

Cari' pov:

I looked into those beautiful blue eyes. Damn, I wish this wasn't a dream. This time the dream was a little different though. After getting lost in her gorgeous blue eyes she suddenly hugged me. Tight. I still couldn't really see her, she was still very blurry and vague, but i could feel her touch. Her soft but still passionate touch. The hug felt familiar, like I'd experienced that exact hug before.

The loud sound of my phone ringing woke me up. It woke me up from my perfect dream. My perfect dream with the perfect girl... I groaned a bit and turned around, reached out, and grabbed my phone from my nightstand besides my bed. It was Alex calling. I looked at the time.

"4 am? What the hell does she want from me at this time?" I groaned kinda annoyed over the fact that she had pulled me out of my lovely dream, hugging the blue eyed girl. The ring tone was still going, so I decided to answer:

"Hi Alex, what's up? it's 4 am you know" I said trying not to sound to sleepy or annoyed, but given that it was 4 am I don't think I succeed. I put my phone on speaker so that I didn't have to hold it.

" Omg I'm so sorry, I forgot all about the time difference..." Alex said generally sorry that she woke me up.

"Well, I'm awake now anyways. What's up?" I said trying my best to keep my eyes open and not fall back asleep again. Alex took a deep breath before speaking:

"I just miss you, you haven't exactly answered my text messages so I dont know how you're doing.. It's only been 3 days and I already feel kinda forgotten. You promised to call everyday to keep me up to date. You know, i'm happy for you and all, but I miss talking to my best friend..."

I had no idea that Alex felt this way. Wow i'm a pretty shitty friend.. I had to take a few seconds to think before speaking, after all I had just woken up and it was in the middle of the night.

"I'm so sorry Alex, I didn't know you felt this way.. I'm really looking forward for you to move over here, cause I miss you too Alex.. And I'm so sorry i haven't responded or called you, everything has just been so new and exiting, so yeah, I know that isn't a very good apology.. I'm sorry" I said really meaning every word.

" It's okay Cari, you just promise me you'll at least answer my calls and texts?"

"Of course" I responded reassuring her

"Goood. Well Cari Elise Fletcher, I need some details about that manager of yours? Is he hot? Are you guys gonna, you know, date?" Alex asked with excitment.

Alex is always there for me, and forgives me when she knows I'm sorry, I love that about her. Even though I couldn't help but laugh like some insane seal when she asked if John and I were dating.

"Alex, my manager John and his boyfriend just told us today that they are moving in together" I said while laughing like a crazy person.

"Oh"

Alex laughed with me. I felt sorry for my neighbours, cause when Alex and I laugh together it's loud. Even louder because I had the phone on speaker. Wow, I've missed laughing like this with Alex..

"Well, then you probably shouldn't date him, cause I think he might be gay" Alex said ironically, which only made us laugh even harder.

"You don't say"

"Getting a bit sassy?" We both laughed again.

"So you aren't crushing on any guy right now?" Alex asked genuinly wanting to know if I was.

I froze for a second. Should I tell her about the blue eyed girl? Or the weird feeling I had yesterday when Shannon smiled at me? The weird good feeling.

"Um well, I think I might be crushing on someone, but I don't really know. It's kinda complicated.." I decided that I should tell her, cause she is my best friend after all. Is this me coming out to her? Am I gay? Or am I bi? Is the blue eyed girl in my dreams just my brain trying to tell me I'm gay? I haven't really thought about that..

"Why is it complicated?" Alex asked not knowing that I was about to tell her something I'd never thougt would come out of my mouth.

"It's.. Well.. It's not exactly.. Um.. A guy I'm crushing on.. She is.. Um.. very much a girl" I stuttered out while I clenched my fists hard. Wow I was nervous.

"Omg is she pretty?" Alex said suddenly really excited.

"Um yeah, but did you hear the part where I told you that I'm crushing on a girl? Girl as in, you know, she and her." I said confused not really understanding her reaction.

"Yeah I heard Cari, but that doesn't really matter. Don't you remember what your parents use to tell us when we were younger? And to be completly honest I've never thougth that you were straight. But that doesn't matter anyways, I still love you and you're still my best friend - as long as you give me some details about this girl"

"Thanks Alex, I'm lucky to have you in my life, you know that right?" I said full of excitement.
To be honest, it was pretty stupid of me to freak out like that before. Obviously Alex would be okay with it. But am I gay now? I really have a lot to think about..

" I know I know, but right now I just wanna hear you talk about the girl"

"Okay well.."

I told her all about Shannon. Everything from her perfect jawline to her amazing arms that gave me that amazing hug. Alex listened and giggled sometimes when I sounded too much like a fan girl talking about her idol.

"Wow Cari, that's an intense crush" Alex was still giggling after my long description of Shannon.

"Yeah I know, but I think she's gay, cause she told me about her break up with someone called Cammie. So I might have a chance" I smiled from ear to ear when I said that last sentence..

My phone vibrated. I'd gotten a text. Who texts me at 4.30 in the morning? I told Alex that I needed to sleep, and she understood so we ended the phone call. Before going back to sleep I checked the text

Unknown number: Hi Cari! I know it's in the middle of the night and I'm sorry if this wakes you up. But I couldn't sleep and then our conversation from today, well technically yesterday, popped up in my mind. So I was wondering if you'd wanna go out and get something to eat later?
Shannon xx

Omg did Shannon really just ask me out or am I overthinking this?? She's just fresh out of a relationship so I have to act chill and be there for her. But of course I would wanna hang out with her

Me: Hey Shan! I was actually already awake:)
Of course I would:) When and where?
I'm gonna try to get a few hours more of sleep, so goodnight:)