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       Internet research tells Mark that he isn't schizophrenic, he isn't crazy and he is actually puking petals. There is such illness and crazily, it's due to unrequited love.

Mark is crazy.

What kind of human throws up petals because the they aren't loved back? Why him and not everyone? It's not his first unrequited love! Then why? Why is this happening to Mark? And it seems he has a whole fucking garden inside because he throws up just so many petals.

Mark is crazy. If not crazy, then he is going crazy.

Mark is crazy in unrequited love.

Internet tells him it's a mortal illness if not treated, the plant inside him growing more and more until destroying his organs and killing him. There are two ways to save him: he either gets his feelings returned or he gets the plant removed.

Neither of those is happening to Mark.

Mark reads that the surgery has a ninety-eight percent chance of success, that people recover easily and don't even present a relapse —only odd and extreme cases—, but that with the surgery all his feelings for his object of affection will disappear.

There's no way Mark is removing all his feelings for Jackson.

Mark has to learn to live with his fucking flowers. He looking up the meaning of primrose, because if fate is playing with him, it cannot be just any flower. Primrose mean I cannot live without you.

Exactly.

Mark cannot live without Jackson, having the other idol being so cold and like another person is insufferable, Mark just can't get rid of his feelings for Jackson. These are too precious to him, Jackson is too precious to him that Mark cannot imagine a life without loving him.

When Mark was struggling in Korea, trying to adapt, missing home every second, Jackson showed up. Jackson, bright, happy, loud, obnoxious, unbearably kind, caring, funny Jackson. He came to his life like the California sun he missed so much, it warmed him up and gave him a feeling of home. Jackson hugged him and Mark felt whole and like he could carry on. Since the beginning, Jackson's been Mark's sun and there's no way Mark can go and live in a word without sun. He just can't.

Mark isn't getting any surgery.