I'm a Christian, but...
Have you ever looked in the mirror and called yourself a monster? I have.
Have you ever felt more worthless and alone than anyone else in the world before? I have.
Have you ever been coerced into loving someone and then they throw you away like a broken toy?
You see, people tend to judge, and say that I have it all together.
I really don't.
If you could see what happens behind the scenes in my heart,
If you could see the things I've buried deep inside to shove them away,
You wouldn't have liked me from the start, as you don't now.
My past relationships destroyed me, and I've counted the days
since I could feel again.
People see me as a guy to go to to help them from buckling,
But they don't know that my knees are buckling as well.
I'm sorry for failing your expectations of me, and I'm definitely sorry
for keeping a mask on, when God clearly has called me to be real.
I am not perfect.
