I didn't save her I loved her

2- You Again

Tuesday Morning -
Actually feels nice to not have my parents arguing this morning. Nope it's not that they didn't want to argue it's because they're not home and it's nothing new. So I got ready for school and today I decided to take the bus since I woke up a little bit late but I can manage to still catch the bus.

As soon as we got to school the bell rang early so everyone rushed to their classes. My first period was history Ms. Anderson is really nice and she understands what I'm going through since no one did the homework she gave the rest of the class time to finish up. Little did I know I zoned out and I thought about Derek. Who's Derek you may ask ? Well you see before kids started bullying me someone actually cared for me and that was Derek. In my freshman year me and Derek were dating and he and I were something I'd never thought we'd be but unfortunately Derek cheated on me with some girl when we were at one of Derek's friends party. After that night even though it was Derek that cheated everyone wanted to put the blame on me started calling me a slut, a whore, a hoe and all of those things and that's when the bullying started even Derek was bullying me yes , he knew that I didn't cheat and I never intended to but he wanted to torture me just to make the stories even more real. I honestly regret saying yes to him after school but that kid still has something that gets my heart to beat a little faster.

After my previous periods it finally came to lunch ....
I sat alone the usual but when I tried to get up and walk to the trash just my luck I came crashing to someone behind me and both our foods were all over us , and just when I thought it couldn't get worse , it had to be little Ms. Perfect

"Yo-yo-YOU SLUT !  You ruined my favorite outfit ! Ugh " oh here we go be prepared for hurricane Arianna
" look Arianna it was an accident Calm down I'll buy you a new one " pft in your dreams

" you did this on purpose and now your gonna pay !" Oh no

Arianna grabs the left over food from the tray and rubs it on my face , she then grabs the milk and pours it all over my head steps on my foot with her high heels and walks away screaming cause I ruined and I quote " her favorite outfit " which is probably why she has it in different colors.  Here I am again on the floor miserable and isn't able to stand up but I feel a pair of hands carrying me and I try to wipe the food off my face to see who it was but I couldn't and I wanted to see who it was so bad but I made it worse and some of it got in my eye.

" hey Devinity what happened now " the nurse Ms. Perkins asked

" oh the usual Arianna and her gang" I say in a sad tone

" oh well don't worry dear I'll get you some new pants and you can wash up since your shirt inside isn't ruined by any food " oh how I love this lady so much

" Thanks Ms. P "

" oh dear what am I thinking , do you want me to make you a sick note ?" I was going to say yes but I forgot that Derek wanted to meet me after school ugh great

" no thanks Ms. P I'll be ok " I've called her Ms. P my whole life cause I come to her a lot after what happened and she knows about it all , about my parents , about school, and about Derek

" ok hun now wash up remove that sweatshirt and put on these leggings " I really don't deserve someone like her I wish my mother treated me this way but in a thousand years will that happen.

School is out and I checked my phone and I got a message from Derek saying to meet him at the park, so I walked there

" hey Dev" was what Derek said as soon as I arrive at where he was at

" ok Derek quit the bs and tell me what you want " I say in a mad tone

" look Dev I just wanted to apologize after everything you've been going through I should've still stuck around and I guess I cared so much about what people thought about me I played Along with the act and started to bully you I'm sorry Dev" he apologized ? Wow I really don't know what to say but I can't fall so quick again everything has been a pain and this for sure is going to be a bigger pain indeed

" look Derek it's ok I'm used to getting hurt I just really thought that you out of all people would hurt me , you were someone I trusted and cared for heck I'd take a bullet for you even when everyone treated me like I was nobody you made me feel like I was somebody but I guess it was too good to be true I got hurt at the end and it's nothing new " words of pain started to reign over Derek and he knew I was hurt but as cold as I was I was strong enough to not cry

" I'm so sorry Dev I just want things to go back to the way it was " those words brings back so many memories, that's what I wanted though I wanted things to go back to the way it was but things are coming so fast I know it'll all come crashing down again

" look Derek as much as I want things to go back to the way it was I can't take any chances right now it's just too much " this could've been my only chance to fix things but I knew that if i did had to fix things it wouldn't be this way but Derek still has a place in my heart because he was my first love

" please Dev I beg you just give me one more chance " to let someone In after they broke you is so hard but I'll believe that he's changed when I see it

" I'm not going to say yes but nor am I going to say no I just need to think about it " and with that we just said goodbye and I walked home

Oh yippie my parents are home , ok I have no time for my sarcasm I'm so tired today was a long day so I head up to my room take a shower put on my clothes and crashed into bed right when my eyes felt heavy my phone vibrated next to me

*new message*

-GN Dev

It was Derek at this point I'm too tired to even open my phone so I just turned it off and I fell asleep right away

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