Flame ||Klance|| (transgender au)

12.lance

Tw: this chapter deals with depression. It's just talked about nothing to serious.

It been a week since me and Keith started dating. He's been fantastic I feel like he's understanding of me and I feel like I'm falling for him which doesn't happen easily for me. I mean it is easy for me to love people, I love everyone, but it's different with Keith and it's hard for me to get romantically attached like I am with Keith.

He's doing his best too. Which I didn't ask for but I'm not complaining. He constantly does nice things for me and has noticed what I find important so he can involve himself in it. Like he's started hanging out with my friends now, and Pidge and Hunk love him. They're getting along so well to a point it's scary.

Just the other day I saw Pidge and Keith talking about cryptids in the corner (a/n that is canon don't tell me otherwise).

I suppose Hunk and Keith have a weird friendship though. It's like two opposites but they're getting along. It makes me happy to see my boyfriend get along with my friends.

But I'm concerned for Keith. As u should be he's my boyfriend. He's constantly being made fun of at school and from this I've seen some habits he has when he's down. He forgets to eat, doesn't talk as often, and is more agitated. I feel like I'm studying an animal but it's things I've noticed. Some days he hasn't even been bullied and it's a totally normal day and he still feels down. The only days he doesn't feel down are the days we do specific things that make him happy. And I love doing those things but sometimes he's already down and he refuses to do the thing to get him up. I think I should mention to this to Shiro. I know he's still mad at me for dating Keith, which I understand. But this is something Shiro would want to know, because I think Keith has depression. I'll ask Keith about it tomorrow too because maybe he's already getting help but if he isn't it is my duty as his boyfriend to help him get help because if Keith isn't his best, it's my fault as his boyfriend for not cheering him up.

So the next day when we were hanging out in my room, I tried to casually bring it up. "Hey Keith you've been down a lot recently."

"Yea," he sighed.

"Is there a reason why?" I look at him.

"Not really," he frowns and stares at the tv.

"Is there anything I could do to cheer you up, because I hate seeing you down?" I question him but he still doesn't look at me.

"I don't think so," he looked down at his hands and fiddled with his shirt, "sometimes it just happens that I get like this I'm not exactly sure why."

"Keith, do you think you might... have depression..?" I asked worried for his response.

"I... um... don't know," he suddenly smiled, "it's not that bad though, i haven't done anything crazy."

"I know, I just get concerned sometimes because I care," I smile back at me.

He smiles more, "I love you Lance."

I kiss his cheek, "I love you too and if you ever feel down you're aloud to talk to me."

"Thanks Lance," he leaned his head on my shoulder.

And everything felt right then.

My mom then opened the door and looked at us, "so is it official Lance."

"What?" I look at her.

She looked at Keith than me, "this is your boyfriend, no?"

I gulped, "yea this is my boyfriend mom."

Keith looked at her wide eyed.

She walked further into the room and ushered Keith to her. "Keith?"

"Yes Ma'am?" Keith said shyly.

"You take care of my boy okay?" She smiled.

"I will Mrs.McClain," he nodded.

"And no need to be informal Keith, call me Sophie, or even mom," she smiled and pat Keith's shoulder and look at me mouthing the words 'he's a cute one.' I blushed at that and she walked out and Keith then looked at me.

"We should probably leave before she makes the wedding cake," Lance said getting up and grabbing my hand.

"The what?" Keith says confused.

"You don't want to know," I grabbed him and quickly got out of the house.

"Let's drive you home," I say grabbing keys and getting in my mother's car.

Driving home I look at him, "maybe you should talk to Shiro or your foster parents about the depression thing."

He practically jumped in his seat, "No!"

"Keith it's not a big deal," I look at him concerned.

"It is though!" He pulled at his hair, "what if it's not okay Lance!? What if they kick me out?! I'll have to find a new home! And I won't see you again!" He looked he was about to cry.

"Keith! Shiro and his family love you I don't think they would do that, and if you don't want to tell them that's your choice I'm not forcing you. I'm just saying maybe they could set you up with a therapist."

"No not now, plus it's not that bad right now I'm surprised you even noticed to be honest," he said situating himself in the seat.

"Well I guess I struggle with it myself so I would know, but I'm way better now ever since I was put on antidepressants. My mom kind of forced me to get them after... well I got depressed," did I just almost tell Keith about my sibling. No one knows that but Hunk. I'll tell Keith but. It now we've only been dating a week.

Again I am in love with him but I need to chill with that. I need to calm down because I can't just tell him. I do speak up again though, "and please talk to me when you're really down."

"I will Lance," he smiled at me, "now can you stop being so protective I can take care of myself Lance."

"I just care about you Keith," I explain.

"Yea but it's like you don't trust me, you're allowed to be concerned and protective but there's a point where it's too much and I feel like I can't be independent," he looked at me moving his hands a lot.

"I do trust you though," I do a half chuckle.

"Prove it then, tomorrow at school I dare you to let me handle the bullies by myself," he stared at me waiting for a response.

"B-but what if they beat you up," at this point we were parked in front of his house.

"Then let them, it's my mistake to make Lance, if I get beat up it's not your fault," he frowned at me and opened the door walking out but looked at me one last time, "if you get too protective I'll right off onto breaking up with you."

Holy. Shit.

I need to protect him that's how I show I love him. But I need to stay with him. I'm so confused right now.

I have a lot of thinking to do.

A/N

Updates are going to be slower I'm so sorry. I'm just um kind of like actually a lot depressed. So that's a thing and probably why I made this chapter just know I'm trying and I have a lot going on right now. It would help though if someone talked to me. Please do message me I really need help and talking to people helps. But I'm generally down and tw: very suicidal.