BY HEART

Chapter 7

Rooms

Rooms arranged next to each other

A lot of rooms

They all look metallicly strong just like the front door which I assumed they were new 

And were unbelievably strong

Every room had its own little device by its side

A lot of doctors stepped in and out, looking tired or exhausted.

before they leave though ,they typed something into that little device that automatically closed the strong door

Screams can be heard from each room

Some showed silence

The others sounded torture and horror

I stepped back covering my mouth what the hell are they doing inside these rooms?

And why are only doctors inside without nurses with them?

A lot of questions were tickling my head 

I gasped when I heard my name being called from the back

It's probably David

I started running to get to the source of the voice

"Where were you ?" David asked sounding concerned

"Umm searching for you.." I said smiling a bit

He let out a chuckle when I realized we are standing infront of a much bigger squared screen than the ones I saw beside the rooms .

It had my picture when I was about 18 years old and every bit of information about me

Those wide black glasses covering my whole face

My long black hideous hair curled up

And how could I forgot my stupid ugly freckles

This person isn't me anymore

That was a part of my past and now it's burned and buried somewhere far far away from my heart
The device showed some obvious information

My name

My age

My family

My sat scores

Everything

But Some were a little private

I was shocked by the amount of information they had

They basically know so much about me or who knows even more than what this device showed me

When I looked down at the far end corner of the device it showed something that I was ashamed of

something I didn't want to remember

I thought this place was going to make me forget about the harsh times I spend in the 4 years of hell

And it was one of the reasons why I decided to join

"I uh" I heard David say behind me

"We had to get every information about you "

I was silent for a while as my eyes went through what was written at the end of my picture

"Arrow lark, a student with straight AS and had a passion for being a doctor in the future
Our sources say that her intelligence is pretty fascinating. Said by a lot of her teachers"

I clicked on the little button that revealed "teachers' reviews about arrow lark"

"We wish her the best " science teacher

"She was a great student of mine" math teacher

"She cheats " English teacher

I wasn't even a bit shocked when I read the last sentence of the teachers' reviews about arrow lark

I know who he was so clearly

Vivid memories flashed into my mind but I shook them trying to not let this stupid device turn me into an emotional bitch

But I skipped all of the teachers' reviews as my eyes scanned the end of the screen and that's when it said "continue" .I raised my little finger to press it but david's voice stopped me

"Are you sure?" He asked looking at me with sympathy

"What do you mean?" I asked looking at his direction now

"It's the students' remarks about you " he said sounding pity

I knew they probably commented on how clumsy I was or how clever I was that it was pathetic or how petite I'm etc

I was never bothered by their humorous mocks toward me I knew I had a purpose when I got out

I knew it

But as my finger was dragged at the far end of the device

David huge hands stopped me

"Maybe later , okay?" He said convincing me

I nodded slowly thinking he thought I won't handle it, thinking I will have a breakdown but he doesnt know

I'm strong

I guess...

I always wondered if words like these matter "stay strong" "you will get through this" "it's only a matter of time" blah blah blah . I always wondered if people were trying to help you , if people were trying to atleast reach out for you
Give you a hand to push you and to make you stand on your feet again
To make you realize the importance of your existence, the importance of not giving up

I found my way through books not people
Sometimes you desperately want to be associated with humans , thinking it will get you out of your misery but we don't know that it puts us more into stress, drama,and depression.
It makes us hate life itself and all it's natural habitat
It makes us hate the human world and wishing it never existed

I, on the other hand, payed my whole attention and consideration into books
Books are boring they say
They didn't know that it made me survive through days normal humans couldn't bear
It made me realize that I had a purpose in this world
I didn't know it yet but here I'm standing inside the building of my dreams
I prayed every night to help people
To make them feel better about themselves and life
I didn't want anyone feeling down or unhealthy because of what the evil world provided us
I wanted them to have hope like I did back then
I wanted to show them that you could save yourself by putting all your aim and destiny in what you truly believe in
I believed in myself and my capability to make the world a better place
Hopefully

Oh hello thereeee, I would love to thank everyone reading my story and I hope you guys are enjoying
Plus more intense chapters are coming up so make sure you would add my story or anything
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I pretty much update a chapter everyday and you have to not miss that!
I'm probably annoying I know
And oh just a quick reminder that arrow doesn't look like the girl in this picture , I like it so I thought why not put it
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