Please don't read if suicide makes you upset. It also might be triggering. I don't want you to hurt youselves. And if you EVER need someone to talk to I'm here ^.^
It seems like the answer at the time, but it's not I tell you, it's not.
You did it because "no-one cares" "everyone hates you", because you're a "pig" "fatty" "loner" "emo" "stupid" "a baby" "worthless" "gross" "Immature" "different". Because you feel it's hopeless to go on. You did everything else; cutting, burning, hair pulling, clawing, everything, but this, so it must be the answer. You fake being "okay" through it all, but now you don't have to fake a smile at all. Your parents don't care, your friend gave up, and worst of all your teachers tell you "it's just a phase" or "suck it up".
You write your letters and clean your wrists. In your letter you write about how sorry you are for being such a mess up. You promise it's for the better and that they shouldn't care.
You step on the chair and tie the rope. The chair makes a thud as you take your final breath.
Your mom walks in to see what the noise was and to see if you fell. She sees your body dangling from the ceiling and she yells. She drops to the floor and starts to sob hysterically. Your dad rushes in and sees your lifeless body. His face pales and his blood runs cold. He walks over to your body, pulling you down, hoping you still have a pulse, but knowing it was hopeless. Your brother walks sleepily in, rubbing his eyes in confusion when he suddenly sees your cold, pale, lifeless body in your crying dad’s arms. He falls to his knees and cradles your still sobbing mom in his arms, willing himself not to cry.
Your friends? They're grades are slipping. Whenever there alone they cry endlessly. They wished they would have known what was happening and they would have gotten to know you better. They hoped it was just a joke when they heard the news over the school intercom.
Your best friend? She stopped eating. She sits in her room all day staring at a wall with a blank expression. She wished she could have helped you better, fully convince you not to do it, blaming herself for not helping you enough. She gave up on school. Failing every class and barely going. She's trying so hard to stay strong just for you.
Your bullies? They all hate themselves for what they have done. They feel worthless. Most of them have gone to rehab for drug/alcohol abuse, or for trying to commit. They dropped out of school not seeing the point in life. They can't live with themselves, knowing they made someone feel so bad about their selves that they took their own life.
Your parents? They fight constantly. Your dad took to drinking and comes home late from work every night from being "out with friends". He tries to drink the pain of you being gone, away. Your mom does nothing but lay in bed all day. She often walks in your room and lays on your bed, crying. She barely cooks, let alone clean.
Your brother? He goes to school just to get out of the house. He just sits there in class, never answering the teacher, never doing homework/ or classwork, just sits there staring off with a sad expression. His friends try to cheer him up, but he just brushes them off. He tries to be the glue for the family, trying to keep the house calm, all while secretly blaming and harming himself.
Because you thought it was the answer when it simply was not
(I WROTE THIS BY MYSELF. THIS IS 100% MINE. MY WRITING, MY WORDS, MY EVERYTHING. I WILL STAB YOU IN THE EYE IF YOU STEAL ANY OF THIS. GOT IT? I LIKE USING CAPS SO DON'T THINK I'M YELLING AT YOU. I JUST LIKE CAPS XD. But seriously don't steal it! Bye darlings! ^.^
I have issues lol)
