so we were talking about family problems in class
i cried
my classmates cried
the teacher cried
it hasn't even been one month jesus christ
at the same time i didn't want to cry because i promised myself to keep on smiling and try to be positive but holy fuck i did
i love my parents and everything but it would be great if i could open up with them. the last time i did that or at least attempted, my dad slapped me on the face and told me not to be a drama queen nor a cry baby. my mom just told me to "ignore" everything. the first time i did that, they didn't take me seriously and laughed. i tried talking to my older brother and he said that our family doesn't need any more problems especially ones that involve me
i was born early so i get sick the most hence they spend on me the most. i also have respiratory problems so there's that. i'm also the only one in my family born with eyesight problems so that's another reason why i cause the most problems.
when i explained that to my health teacher, she actually spoke with me sincerely and took me seriously. same goes for my classmates who have sexuality issues, parent neglect and more problems.
what i noticed is that all the ones who had actual problems were the rowdiest, most popular and the smartest ones in the class. all those that looked up to us were shocked to see us cry.
smh i feel like a dork i should be happy not crying aMI THIS IS NOT YOU
