Vents

Dear A

     Dear A, You'll never see this but this is to you, my only friend in a time of need. I want you to know something. You never cease to amaze me and I never grow tired of you no matter how much you think I will. I won't drop you and then say it was you who was the problem, come to think of it I won't ever drop you. I couldn't. You may not be able to see it but you are a precious gift to this world that I plan to protect. You're here for me right now which is one of the most difficult times in my life. I am eternally grateful for that beyond recognition. I can't tell you everything, though I wish I could. The things I can't tell you are silly, redundant, fragments of romantic feelings flitting through my heart and head constantly that aren't all complete yet. Incomplete because I'm scared. Scared for many reasons. Scared of rejection, scared because of her. Scared shitless that I'm gonna ruin everything. So A, I like you a lot. You'll just probably never know that. Until next time,

                                                                                                                                -A Piece of Shit