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ambers journal

dear mom,

i wish you were still here. it's hard. i never thought i would be living on my own taking care of my little sister at age 15. most people come up to me and ask if i'm okay. i say yes but only to stop the conversation. i hate talking about it. i miss you but i don't miss you. you basically screwed me over. you were there the first few years but then you left. you loved the drugs and alcohol more then me and mia.

i'm on vacation. i'm actually sitting at the beach waiting for my friend jack to text me back. he's nice and very sweet. he took me out last night. for once in my life i forgot about the horrible life i've lived so far. he made me feel different but in a good way. he actually invited me to his house tonight. i guess his family is gonna be there. he has a little sister too. someone who mia can finally be friends with. did i mention that he's in a band. i'm listening to his music now. his voice is gorgeous. but sadly this is only vacation and i will soon have to go back to missouri and to the horrible town with horrible memories.

i still wear the necklace you gave me when i was 6. the little heart that had my initials on it. i haven't taken it off since you passed. i miss you mom. even though you don't deserve to be missed.

much love,
           amber king

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