Im here yet can anybody hear me.
I listen to all of you
And yet I'm alone when I need to be heard
I'm lost in the darkness that's slowly consuming me
I'm slowly losing what's left of my sanity
I'm hurting yet I feel no pain
This blade I hold dear
I use just to know I'm still here
I want to be held and be told everything will be alright
Yet no one truly cares
I'm pushed away until I am need
I am unheard until you need advice or to vent
I am abandoned by the ones I thought I could trust
I'm forgotten my love
I debate against this blade
For I know it is wrong
I know I am pathetic to turn to this
But who is there to listen?
Who is willing to hear my silent whimpers?
No one
I may seem strong in the desperate times
But it doesn't mean I am fine
Inside I am breaking
Inside I am screaming and fighting to just let it all out
Yet all you see is an emotionless face.
I try to let it out and take your offer of coming to you
I've tried so many times
And yet it turns into being all about you
Just like every single time
Well now here I sit, on this mossy floor
Trees that are so close yet so far
I'm letting it all go now but where are you?
You didn't chase me when I left
You didn't even make a peep
Instead you where more worried about how you are doing
You watched me leave
I've put up with a lot of different forms of pain
But this is all I can take
I can't take it anymore
I won't stand for it
And yet I still can not cry...
I try to let this pain I've held out but I am unable to still
I want so many things
Yet I never ask because all you say is that I ask for to much
I ask for the bare minimum
