The King's Abused Mate

Chapter 14 - Realization

Tala's POV

I slightly removed my hand from my face as I saw Jonah left my room with a sad face, closing the door firmly behind him. I put my face in my hands again with guilt, feeling sad and guilty from upsetting Jonah. Now, I'm pretty sure that he dislikes me. He just tried to help me eat, but I rejected it and act stubborn. I also refused to tell him what's wrong, eventhough he clearly only wanted to help. I seriously think the stubborn side of me is so ridiculous.

I kept on blaming myself for this, and realized that I actually shouted at him to leave me alone. I just felt more sad than ever, and started crying all over again. I sobbed and sobbed, feeling streams of tears going through my face, making my T-shirt wet and my face red. How I hate crying so much, by the fact that they make you look worst than you already are and how they show that you're weak at the moment. But yet, I'm doing that precise activity.

I'm confused on what to do in this situation. Should I ever approach Jonah again? Does he hate me now? Will he kick me out or punish me? What do I do with my problem? Is this eating problem going to get me killed? All these negative thoughts roam around my head, making me want to cry out more, eventhough I feel as if I cried the hardest I can to relieve my pain.

I continued on crying until I heard another knock on my door, causing me to release my hand from my face. Is it Jonah again? Is he here to kick me out? I wondered about who it might be on the other side of the door instead of just opening the door, which is stupid of me. But I just wanted to be left alone right now, which is not happening apparently.

"Tala?" A girls's voice sounded through the door, stopping me from thinking. I tried to process the voice, and recognised that it was May. "Y-yeah?" I replied through my sobs, wondering why she's here. Does she really care about me to visit me in a time like this? Or is she here bearing bad news? The only way to find out is to let her in.

"Y-you can come i-in!" I said a bit louder so she can hear me clearly. "Okay. I'm coming in!" She said, twisting the door knob and opening the door. She walked over to me with a sad face and sat beside me, putting her hand on my hand that was on my lap. "Hey Tala, you alright?" She asked softly.

"Y-yeah." I answered, feeling the tears that's threatining to fall. To be honest, I don't feel alright at all, but I don't want her to bug me with sweet talk. "Are you sure? You don't seem alright." She said, raising one of her eyebrow. I just sighed, feeling defeated. I guess there is no harm in telling her.

"I-I'm not alright." I said quietly to her, putting my head down. "Mind telling me the problem?" She replied to me with a caring smile on her face, reassuring me. "You can also stop feeling nervous around me. I won't harm you." She continued. Maybe she was annoyed by me stuttering?

"I just have some type of problem with food." I tried to say confidently. "Are you scared to get punished for eating or something?" She asked me. I shook my head no, biting my lips because it's just hard for me to say it. "Do you feel weird eating without having to work for it?" She guessed again, resulting me to shake my head again. Both of her guesses are part of it, but it's not my main problem.

"I-I trust Jonah enough to know that he'll let me eat anything I desire for free, b-but there's just something else I'm ashamed of....." I explained. "You can tell me, I won't judge. I promise." She said to me. "Really? Pinky promise?" I said. I don't know why, but I feel doing a pinky promise is really important. It always made me feel secure, eventhough I know it's really childish.

May widen her eyes for a few seconds before she giggled, holding out her pinky finger. "You're so cute! I pinky promise." She said with a smile, making me smile back. I held out my pinky finger amd interwined it with hers, creating the promise. "Pinky promise!" I said cheerfully, which made me feel more comfortable in telling her knowing she won't judge.