Victory Boulevard

12.

Jc

i wake up and look over , she wasn't by my side. i didn't think about it that much. shes just downstairs with Franny or something.

i get up and walk into the bathroom , i hop in the shower.

i started to think, Katrina is one fine piece of gold. i really like her though its weird. i wanna be with her but relationships are to much with my life. so i keep low profile.

i get out the shower, dry off. turn on clothes, grab my phone and head downstairs.

everyone was starring at me, it was creepy.

"umm hey guys?" i say.

no answer? i didn't see Katrina.

"you guys seen Katrina, when i woke up she wasn't in bed" i ask.

"you didn't see or what?" Franny says with the most attitude.

"less attitude, but see what" i answer looking at Franny.

"dude, so you haven't been on your phone all day?" Bobby looks at me as Corey asks me.

"no i just woke up" i answer.

"yo dude what the heck then check!" Bobby says to me

i check my phone , i first hit twitter. so many tweets, i was so confused i didn't know what was happening nor have a slight clue what is going on. so many people saying that me and Katrina broke up, she left me, she gone home to her family, i check her twitter and see she tweeted about 9 hours ago.

@lovingkatrina: please answer meee, you and jc broke up ? @katrinamarie

In Replying To @lovingkatrina

@katrinamarie: I miss you text me love to meet up again, but mama we weren't ever dating :)

i felt my heart sink. i look through my feed, i finally understand whats happening.

so i guess some account made a post saying i only use Katrina for her body, and i guess she left and went home back to Australia. so stupid.

i went on snapchat , and watched her story. first it was a picture of her bags on the porch with the uber in the background , then the next snap was her on the plane. finally her last was a picture with her and her mom in a car, they were both smiling. her mom was taking the picture. the caption said.

"ima miss L.A. but im so happy to be home :D"

i lock my phone.

"when did she leave" i ask.

"she left a long time ago" Kian says.

"did you play her or no" Bobby says.

"at first i was gonna, ya know but she was different. my feelings for her got stronger then i wanted because you guys know that i dont do relationships because of youtube , its just to much. but i was gonna try to work out things" i answer.

they all nod, Corey, Kian, and Bobby were gonna film a video, i was gona be in it but this shit wasnt what i wanted so i dropped out of the video. Fran stayed with me and we talked for hours about things . i wanted to fix things between us but i want to give her space, i didnt wanna push into coming back. plus shes not like that, shes strong she does what she feels so i know over time she will come back, i will wait for her.

i go back into my room. i check to see if all her stuff is gone. she makeup, hair products, toothbrush, and other belongings were here. the only thing i couldnt find was all her clothes. she took all that stuff. she other purses and bags were here , only her two big bags were gone, i guess that had her clothes in it. my life is ass right now.

my phone buzzed, it was a text from Kian.

"hey bud i know your upset right now, but our Fridays video has to go up in a few hours, and i edited last time and im filming . can you edit the video for me please?" i read.

"yea , ill start editing it!" i reply.

i grab my laptop, i start editing. it was a video, a challenge. the only thing me and Kian are best at. im so glad we arent doing vlogs anymore, omg it would suck ass, because i would have to put a fake smile for everyone to think im fine with Katrina gone when im actually really lonely and sad, now when im upset and sad , im just gonna think.

"at least we dont vlog anymore"

i feel a little better after editing the video because it was funny. Katrina popped up in the video a fews times , like how Franny does sometimes. Katrina's head popped in, you could hear her in the background laughing with Franny and stuff. she reminded me Franny, they are both goofy ,never serious. i miss Katrina but i gotta get over this shit because i'm not weak.
i post the video. i get up and leave my room, i walk over to the kitchen and get a soda. i go over to couch and watch tv. i guess they finished filming because no one was in the bottom floor they were all in their rooms. i watched Danny Phantom because it was on NickToons.
i started to get tired so i turned off the tv and went upstairs. hopped into bed, started to go through instagram.
the first thing i see is that Katrina posted something.it was with a guy. i can't get mad because we aren't together, but i'm still mad. i don't know why i am because normally i'd move on by now, but there something about her that i adore. she's so beautiful.
i turn my phone off and go to sleep, well try. i couldn't because she was stuck in my mind.
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i wake up the next morning it was around 12:30. it was late for me because normally Katrina wakes me up or her in the shower does. i get in the shower. it took me while to get out , i didn't want to. i didn't want to do anything today, but i had planned to go shopping  with Kian. we needed more clothes. i got out. put on a black shirt, blue ripped jeans, black and white vans. we left the house, we walked into the mall. Kian dragged me into every store. i think he did that to keep my mind off Katrina. it didn't really work , i wanted to get what i needed/wanted and then go home.

about 2 1/2 hours later we left. then we got some food, and went home. i got new shirts, jeans, and vans. i was happy, i went into my room and hung the stuff in my closet. i was just chilling on my laptop. then all of a sudden my phone dings. i look over.
Katrina Marie:
can we talk?