Bad Girl VS Bad Boy

chapter 9

 have you ever just sat down and cleared your mind? Or just tryed to look at the world from a different perspective? Well That's what i am trying to do. I was sitting on this brown old rickety bench in the park watching kids play and lovers walk by with there secrets and,  whispering. My heart ached and my stomach clenched from the nostalgia thats was sinking through my pores in buckets and rivers. All i see is happiness and the  unconditional love that seemed like nothing but a distant memory.

Ever since hannahs heart was broken shes distanced herself from the world. Her once confidence was not nothing but a fabric she wore on her skin,  or a fake gucchi bag. It was an outer layer and slowly slipped away. She was fine the first day but as time passed she became worse until her glassy blank stare became the norm and she faded into the background like wallpaper or just another regular old object. Here i thought my plan was going great, but i find myself stuck. If i do what he did to another person like i used to doesn't that make me just like Max and would that look on Elis face be on someone else and because of me?

I breathed in the warm spring air, the perfect day slowly making my dark thoughts and aura dissipate. The sunshine showing me that it is a new day and such a perfect one at that. It made me think of my mom and dad before she passed away. A day similar to this, except my parent sat where i did and i played on the playground. I remember my mothers smiling face the one that i see replicated in my own face.

It hurt and i wiped that happy memory away, i just hate that life got so complicated and couldn't stay the same happy and innocent world that it was so long ago. Unfortunately in life things change when you grow older and that bubble pops leaving you with nothing but the real world. I had to have sat there on that bench all afternoon because before i knew it the sun was setting and the park as deserted leaving behind the echoes of the  happy kids. I stood up with a groan and stretched feeling the nice tingly sensation ripple up my back and down to my toes. I walked the sidewalk out of the park and stood by the roadside waiting for the opportune to run across and look like a tard until i his the sidewalk on the other side. I went to take a step and a car comes out of no where and just stops in front of me. The hell?

The dark tinted windows of the black audi were rolled down and all i saw was darkness and a shadow. "why are you out here so late young lady don't you know that the creepers come out at night." I knew that voice and my heart flitted as i leaning into the car window and spoke to the one and only Landon Harper si professora."I'm only a few block away why does it matter?"

"Well? Haven't you heard about the cannibal that lives in this neighborhood. He likes to chop little girls up and eat them up like chicken."His voiced turned into a slightly teasing but slightly menacing whisper and when i looked over he had a broad smile on that all his canines were showing in pearly white glory. I rolled my eyes trying not to start school girl crush breathing because that is just...creepy.

" 1. I'm not a little Landon and 2. I'm pretty sure we don't have another jeffrey daumer lurking in this rich metropolitan area. this is the rich kids playground. not daumer r' us. Thank you sir."

" Aren't i supposed to be the teacher here whats up with the lecture Blair." he look at me in his peripheral vision in a playful way. Oh landon how much more can my heart strings take of you. To bad i can't pause real life to breathe. Though my heart started beating faster and i looked away. Damn if i fall for the guard dog my dad sent to watch me my play for maximus revenge would be ruined. Plus you know hes the guard dog and not here because he wants to be. With that my heart slowed down and cooled immensely. I went all bipolar on his ass and turned to the ice princess that i used to be. You know the part of me that i know how to pull out like a 2nd skin or defense mechanism.

I went silent and for the last few minutes of the drive it became chillingly quiet in the car. Landon looked over confusion on his face. He pulled by the side of my apartment building where my penthouse was located. Turning to me he opened his mouth to speak but i cut him short." goodbye Professor Harper i will see you in class tomorrow."

I opened  the door jerkily while sliding the belt off from across my body. As i was stepping out onto the hot spring concrete he grabbed my elbow and pulled me back into a sitting position.

"Why the hell did you just go from happy smiley blair to ice cold and heartless sounding Blair?" He was angry i could see the spark of it growing in his eyes. As well as here the under current in his owe to steady and even voice." MM maybe  because for a second i actually forgot that you were my dads watch dog and. FYI as a guard you can't get angry at me for turning cold. Don't try to be buddy buddy with me when all your doing is your job K? k  I'm leaving now, you know unless you want to pull me back into the car like a maniac. I glared at him yanking my elbow out of his grasp. I stood up out of his 2014 red dodge charger slamming the sleek door and walking in a brisk pace to the door of  my building all the while my rage building. When i looked back his car was gone. My eyes watered while this foreign emotion drummed through my body like the blood in my veins it reached through my entire body. I just wanted to curl up in a ball to make it stop. Damn blair stop being a pussy i said to myself as i walked into the elevator typing in my code so it would bring me to my house.

I've played way to many people to just now start feeling hurt. Walking into my apartment i kicked my shoes of with vehemence and walked to my kitchen pantry and pulled out my cabernet sauvignon  vintage wine and chug it. O ya perfect day to just get shitfaced. This is going to be a great night