cut·ter
ˈkətər/
noun
plural noun: cutters
•a person who cuts into their own flesh, esp. habitually as a symptom of emotional distress.•
"a support group for recovering cutters"
cutting is not something to be advertising. Yet it's also not something to be ashamed of.
I'm scared. Summers coming and my scars aren't fading fast enough. Why didn't I listen to the people that had already done it- gone through it.
Even though it bled I didn't think it would make a noticeable scar. My mistake i guess.
They say everyone makes mistakes, but then they get mad when you make one? They call you pathetic and say that "your just looking for attention" but then you get mad.. What you don't realize at the moment is that some of you are.. It's not a bad thing, your just looking for someone to say "I'm so sorry I wasn't there to help you get through this, I'm sorry I didn't notice you hurting."
I know that I wish I could tell my mom and she just apologize- for not being there when I needed her the most. But I know that all she would say is "You are ridiculous, we give you everything"...
Mom what you don't realize is that you didn't give me love when I needed it. I know you love me but why weren't you there? Why do you STILL not believe me? Why do you just think that my consoler was crazy? It was a fucking test! all she had to do was tally up the points and tell me how much of a high risk I am. You are the pathetic one and I would absolutely die for you to read this.. Yet, I know that you wouldn't even flinch if you did. Why mom?
Why do you not care?
Why do you not believe me?
Why do you think I can just get over it?
Why don't you want to help me?
Why am I here?
Why mom, Why?
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