After all the months that have passed you'd think that life would be better but it's only gotten worse my best friend is not the same person anymore literally. Me ex best friend hates me now and now I have a new best friend but I'm not allowed to be friends with her after getting caught sneaking out with her. But she still my best friend no matter what. It's summer time and let me tell you it's been the worst summer ever. I thought I was getting better but I was only getting worse. My mom find out about me cutting again today which resulted in her not trying to comfort me in my time of pain and need but mother fucking yelling at me. Oh god I hate my mom I just want to leave already and then she treats my step dad like shit to the point he wants to leave like ahsksjbdksks. I just want Luke though. The only person who has ever been able to help me through all the shit in my life. And I hope he can help again. Blehhhhhh. Haha that's me making up that I died lmao well I am writing myself as a character so I can make everything anything I want it to be so here it goes. I now live with my boyfriend Luke who loves me so much and I haven't cut in years I now properly exercise so I don't ever feel the need to starve myself or purge my food. We are so happy. I don't talk to my bastard mother anymore. I don't talk to any of my family anymore for that matter. We live in LA and his music career is better than ever. So yeah. Nope that didn't work. It's a damn shame too that would have been an amazing life. Only 2 1/2 more years though than I can get the hell out of here and go back home to California. I miss it so much. Only 2 1/2 more years until I am 18 and I can finally be set free and happy. I'm very excited.
