Lost love (Ben Bruce love story)

Gone, Gone, Gone, Gone, Gone

***Kayla's POV***

"Oh Ben!" I screamin enjoyment holding his back as I orgasm

"Hey." He smiles "let try something sexy"

"What?" I say uncertainly

"Go along with it" he says kissing my neck

***minutes later***

"Oh god" I say out of breath, plopping down on the bed

"That was amazing" Ben say as I put my head on his chest

"Where did you come up with that"

"Shit, I don't know. Just felt it"

"I love your feels."

"We should do it again."

"Hell yeah."

***Hour later***

"Bloody hell man. Can you be any louder." Danny says knocking on my bedroom door

"How'd you get in here" Ben asks putting his pants on

"Walked in." Danny says "We need to pack for warped tour."

"Shit, going to my parents this week too." I say hearing Danny walk down stairs and out the house

"Why?"

"No reason"

"No secrets."

"Birthday."

"Birthday!" Ben screams "I had no idea"

"Yeah but you have a tour so you can't come. Besides my parents won't like you"

"Why not?"

"They think I should marry a big time lawyer and anybody but that is 'bad'"

"I could pretend..."

"No. Really it's cool" I say zipping up a my suitcase

"My plane leaves in two hours actually" I say looking at my watch

"I'll drive you to the airport." he says grabbing his car keys

"Thanks" We get in the car and drive for thirty minutes, talking and laughing.

"Bye sweetie" I say taking my suitcase out of his hand and giving him a nice long kiss.

"I'm going to miss you"

"I'll miss you too. But one week and I'll fly out to you."

"Call you every night" he says, waving goodbye

"Bye" I say.

I get my bags checked, walk through security and the terminal and get on the plane.

*Saturday (My birthday)*

As I sit in the chair, my parents singing 'happy birthday'. I just really wanted to see him, Ben. He hasn't called but boys. I'm not worried.

"Kayla" Derek says "Haven't seen you since at the hospital"

"How have you been Derek" I say with a sincere smile hugging him

"How have you been?"

"Better." I say

"We should talk alone" He whispers

"Lets go downstairs" I say

"About the miscarriage" He says when we get downstairs

"I'm not doing this" I say walking away

"Talk. We are mature adults." he says grabbing my hand

"I don't want to"

"It was my child too Kayla!"

"It wasn't a child. It was a fetus. A very small chunk of skin inside my stomach."

"Kayla....you're not even upset"

"Of course I'm upset!" I say letting my tears fall

"Oh Kayla..." Derek says pulling me into his arms

"No. After you have one miscarriage... the percentage of having another miscarriage is very high. I may never have a child"

"But... that one last percentage could be you"

"No it can't Derek."

"Let's try Kayla. Again."

"I can't. I don't want to. I love Ben"

"You love me too."

"Derek. I can't go through losing another one of your fetus'"

"Then don't I just want to be with you"

"I know Derek"

"Then why can't you?"

"Because I can't again. I just can't"

"You alway can Kayla." he says kissing me.

"No." I push away

"Fine. But one last trip on acid?"

"The drug?"

"Fuck yeah" I say excitedly. He takes it out and we get started. And black out

"What the fuck happened" I say waking up naked

"Shit not again Derek"

"Don't worry. No sex"

"How should I believe you"

"See condom." He say dangling it in my face. "I tried but no dice. You kept calling me Ben and it turned me off"

"Good" I say getting up and collecting my clothes around the room.

***5 days later***

"Oh Kayla!" Ben moans finishing.

"Oh. My. God. It keeps getting better" I said rolling over in his bunk.

"I missed you when you were away"

"Calling may have helped" I say bitterly climbing out of the bunk and putting clothes on

"Something came up"

"Your new girlfriend?" I say getting angrier

"No. I promise"

"Then what?"

"Sit down"

"No."

"Fine. I'll tell you" Ben caves "Andy escaped from jail and I didn't call because if I found him I wouldn't need to scare you"

"Shit" I say sitting down.

"Kayla..."

"Shit" I say getting up and running for the bathroom. Vomiting.

"Shhhh" Ben says holding my hair

"Let's just.....can I just be alone?" I ask

"Yeah. Im going to our bunk. Call if you need me"

"Thanks" I say throwing up again. I hear Ben go up to his bunk, I sit down against the bathtub. Taking out my razor blade and creating nice deep slices on my hip and thighs.