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Short.

I inhaled my sandwich in about...three bites?
I was so hungry and couldn't believe it was lunch time already.
I finished earlier than my coworkers, so I decided to complete my job.
Praying, I hoped that the CEO would like me and promote me to a higher level.
Lots of work, I know. But I didn't mind it. I truthfully prefer being so busy rather than have time on my hand. Because then it'll be free in my mind...and I'll start thinking...
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I dreaded going back home, where I stayed all alone. I wanted to get myself busier, and more exhausted, so I decided to practice some choreographies to knock my body out, and it worked.
Two hours later, I stepped into the shower, and got ready to go to bed.
My stomach grumbled.
Tsk, damn it. I hadn't eaten anything since that sandwich during lunch.
Whatever. I decided to have another qick sandwich, to avoid getting up in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep. Because that means that I'll have nothing to do..and then I'll start thinking..
"STOP IT", I screamed at myself.
I finished eating and went to bed.
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I woke up at about 9:36 pm.
Wait, what the heck?
When did I go to bed?
I recalculated the day I've painfully lived.
I heaved a loud sigh at my stupidity. I exhausted myself so much that I went to bed at 7. Now I'll probably have to wait till 3 am to fall back asleep.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. STUPID.
I was still a little hungry, and I finally gave in into feeding this damned body with something to shut it up.
While cooking myself some instant noodles, I checked my phone.
My eyes fell upon your number.
I gave the bracelet on my wrist a glance.
I miss you.
We've never really been together, but I miss you.
Two years it too much. I should've forgotten. I should've gotten rid of this stupid bracelet. Why did I even give it to you in the first place?
I remember our last day. I hugged you. And I know that you cried, too.
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[11 P.M.]
I finished eating my noodles and cleaning.
In conclusion, I lost. I tried keeping myself busy and preoccupied, I tried tiering my body and mind all the time, so that I wouldn't start thinking about you, but I failed.
"Sorry", I whispered apologetically to the side of me that wanted to forget so badly.
I sighed. When will this end.
When will this start? A little voice inside of me asked;
And since I'm already losing, I decided to allow this side to win tonight.
I picked up my phone.