Internally I scream, "No way." but outwardly I yell, "Okay!". Internally I scream, "No, I do not like that." but outwardly I say, "I like what you like.". Internally I scream, "Hey, you can't do that!" but outwardly I whisper, "Let's do it.". Internally I scream, "Why can't I say what I want to say!?" but outwardly I whimper, "I got nothing to say." Internally I scream, "No! I don't want to do this! I can't stay and do this! I'm leaving." but all that I can do is nod and silently obey. Now my internal screams will never be heard because all listening ears have turned away and all they have to say is, "No one believes you, you willingly committed that felony."
A guard escorts me to my cell and says, "Welcome to your new home." Internally I scream, "This cell will never be my home! My 'friend' pressured me to do it then left me to face this alone! You'll see I'll be out of here in no time at all!" but all I do is nod sadly. A guard escorts me to the judge whom asks me, "What do you plead?" Internally I scream, "Not guilty! I plead not guilty!" but all I can meekly say, "Guilty." A guard escorts me to my home, Evilly smiles, and says, "I hope you enjoy your stay!" Internally I scream, "No! You got the wrong guy! Please I don't deserve to stay!" but all I can do is flinch away. A guard escorts me to the cafeteria, yells, "Clean up that mess!" and slams down my trey! Internally I scream, "Hey, you can't do that! You clean it up!" but all I can do is slowly bend down and put my now dirty food back on the trey.
Today I'm walking out of jail a free man but the guard at the exit smugly says, "Enjoy your vacation, you'll be back in a week or two." Internally I scream, "Shut it! This isn't a vacation, I'm leaving and never coming back!" but I can only bring myself to flip him off. Today I'm doing job interviews but all the men and woman sitting in the desks say, "Sorry, but we don't hire felons." Internally I scream, "What? Felon? I'm an ex-felon as in I've done my time and paid my do. I don't need your rude fake apology to remind me everyday of the mistake I made!" but I can only bring myself to make a fake smile and leave the tense room. Today I'm begging to my mom for money and to that she says, "Hell no! Child, go get your lazy ass out of my house and get a job! Internally I scream, "I tried mama! I really did try! No one wants to hire me, and I don't know what to do!" but I can only bring myself to look into my moms eyes for a few more seconds before the grief in her eyes is to much to bear. Today I'm going to hang myself so I mummer faintly, "Well, this was inevitable" Internally I scream, "It could have been avoided if you had just listened to me."
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