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Leaves

I'm gonna be sadistic and neutral about this. So I was at my staff pool party at the pool we worked at (-kungchu would know but she's younger than me so ofc she can't work at all yet) and I was alone most of the time cuz I'm not really close friends with my coworkers even though I know most of them from high school. It's just that I don't talk much, especially to people I barely know. I've known some of them from middle school but you see, I've never really hung out with them most of the time. It seems like I'm better off alone but I also want someone who understands and appreciates me.

I can totally be a people person but I just wasn't feeling like it. I was exhausted, mentally, emotionally, and physically. Today is a Monday, not usually a good day for a party. Food was eh; I was the only one who brought fruit, which was watermelon. Everything else was junk/sweet: cookies, brownies, cake, pizza, cupcakes, & chips, which ofc decreased my energy by a whole lot.

I was overwhelmed by the many memories, good and bad, that flooded my head, which was giving me a headache along with the negative effects of sweets. It's been a while since I've actually had sweets that were extremely sweet so it was an overload for me. I went a little insane and by that I mean I ran across the green lawn with my towel behind me and I overheard some ppl say, "lol wut is she doing? Is she trying to be a superhero? Omg" but I didn't care cuz I just wanted time to pass so that I could go home. I've been at this pool for years but it just wasn't the same without my teammates from my swim team/club. Again, -kungchu would know.😪

Now, these leaves were found nearby the pool and I happened to pick them up. I wanted to know that even if they had holes in them they could still float and I tested them out. Indeed they did and it made me realize: even though we might be dead, we can still go on until absolutely nothing was left of us. Even if we're not okay or some things are missing, we can still work with what we still have.

I love nature. It gives me a lot of hope and reassurance. It gives me life even if I'm dead inside, done with the world. It's almost like a wake up call. lol I even found a dime😂😂😂