Departure

Author's notes: this is written from Itachi's POV , the time is during the night he exterminated the Uchiha clan. I tried to described his feelings about having to leave Sasuke behind.

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when I turn to leave

a shadow of doubt appears in my heart

but I know I'm doing the right thing

that you'll be happier without me

I'm no longer fit to stay by your side

it's heartbreaking

every step I take, takes me farther away from you

I want to turn back

to see you smile at me like you always do

to embrace you, to be with you forever

not being able to be with you, isn't it better to die?

it's the same as being dead inside

every heartbeat is filled with pain, I can't breath

it's too painful, to imagine life without you

yet I remind myself I do this for your sake

for your happiness

even though we can't be together

just knowing that you are doing fine...

that's enough for me

not enough to make me happy

but enough for me to live on

as long as you are on this earth

I can endure it

I look at my blood soaked hands

my sins...the pain I caused

this path was my choice

I made this decision

about that I have no regrets and yet...

I feel troubled

even though I killed many of my loved ones tonight

the pain I feel in my heart is because of him

the pain of leaving him

I know I hurt him, I made him cry

a suffering that will remain with him forever

yet this suffering

will enable him to survive in this world

I wanted to hold him, tell him my true feelings

yet I had to break him

he has to experience suffering to become strong

so that when all the pieces of his heart come together again

his heart will become unbreakable

he will be able to decide his own destiny

his will isn't weak

he will yearn to avenge those he loved

though none of them ever loved him as I do

he will look for me, I know

I lived for him, so it's only right I die for him

by his hands

this is my only purpose

I won't cry, my ideal is righteous

this is my choice, my destiny...