Finding Sebastian

Michael

Ciel Michaelis

  It has been two days since we arrived in Upton, Kentucky, and the barrier is still up. I was starting to get very anxious and it was noticed by everyone, including Sebastian.

"Ciel, honey, I need you to calm down," Sebastian said through our bond.

"I-I can't. Sebastian, I can't just sit around here and wait... I need you! I need to feel your arms around me. I need to feel your soft lips on mine. I need you Sebastian!"

"I know my love, but you have to be patient. I am pretty sure Uncle is doing everything he can to break that barrier."

"I know it's just... I miss you. I miss you so much it hurts," I cried.

"I know. We will be together soon. I promise. I have to go now, but please breathe. I love you so much."

"I love you too." I cried before our connection was broken. When I came back to reality I felt tears streaming down my face and the children lying on my chest asleep. I also felt someone stroking my hair. I looked up to see Katherine smiling down at me.

"You have been talking to him haven't you?" Katherine asked with a smile. 

"Y-Yeah... I have," I said with a sad smile.

"You know, I have never seen a bond as strong as you and Sebastian."

Really?" I asked.

"Really. I am glad he has you. He needed someone to love him as much as you do."

"I'm glad... How much longer until I can save him?"

"I don't know Ciel. Uncle Lucifer is doing everything he can at the moment. He has barely rested these past couple of days. He wants to rescue Sebastian almost as much as you do."

"I know... It's just, I miss him so much. I never realized how much I needed him until now. I can't lose anymore of my family Katherine... I just can't." I cried. By the last sentence, I was breaking down sobbing. The children woke up after I started sobbing and threw their arms around my neck attempting to comfort me. I sobbed harder and Katherine wrapped her arms around me and the children, hugging us tightly. I felt Isabella's tears run down my chest. She has been holding it in for me hasn't she?

"I am such a terrible mother. I'm a terrible husband and a terrible person in general. I... I let this happen. I..." I couldn't finish my sentence before I started sobbing even harder if that was even possible.

"Mommy. We love you. You're not a terrible momma. I know that daddy loves you too and he doesn't think you're terrible neither," Vladimir said hugging me tighter.

"He's right, Ciel. Nobody thinks any of this is your fault. Jonathan is just a crazy bastard who was stupid enough to fall in love with Aidan. If you weren't there that night, Sebastian might have died. Ciel, you are a wonderful person and I am really glad that you became a part of this family. You have brought so much happiness into this family that no one else can ever bring. We all love you so much Ciel," Katherine said. My sobbing started slowing down until they became nothing but a slight hiccup here and there. After i was done, I held the children tight to my chest and laid my head on Katherine's as she held me close. I started calming down a bit when Loretta walked over to us. 

"Ciel honey, Lucifer wants to talk to you," she said. I lifted my head off of Katherine's chest and kissed the top of the children's heads. 

" I'll be back I guess," I said, forcing a small smile.

"Okay mommy," Isabella said hugging me tightly. I hugged her back then got up, slowly making my way over to Lucifer. When I got over to him, I stopped. I really didn't want to be the first one to talk.