My Journal.
Chapter2
Well, no.
Londons POV
"Ok well im gunna bring the alcohol the beers the-"
"ALCOHOL? BEERS?" im surprised if my eyes didnt bulge out of its sockets.
we were currently at my house on my bed as we apparently need to, I quote 'make a smashing part-aaayy list'
"Faith man" I groaned bringing my hands up to my temple feeling a small headache coming.
"London man" she groaned mocking me.
"Im gunna get us a drink" I muttered as I stood from the bed and made my way to the door, before grabbing the handle I turned and remembered we werent the only two here.
"Jayyyy" I shouted
"hhmm?" he answered not even taking the headphones out.
sighing I walked over to his beanbag, bent over and took his earphones out.
"aayyy!" he gasped taking the headphones off of me.
"Would you like something to drink?" I asked slowly.
"yeah whatever you have" a smirk creeping its way on his face.
"wierdo"
I was about to turn when I felt a hand on my wrist and I was pulled down to the position i was just in. I gave Justin a 'what the fuck' look.
"No dont leave, I like the view right now" he whispered, still smirking.
I forrowed my eyeborws, whats he on about? the view? huh?
I followed where his eyes were looking and immediatly pulled away.
I blushed..... hardcore.
Slapping his wrists, I muttered 'in your dreams bieber' making my way down the stairs I heard him shout.
"How'd you know?"
Jerk.
Chuckling I shook my head and made my way downstairs.
I opened the fridge taking some bottles of freez out. (AN: if you dont know what it is, search it up, its the best drink)
I dont understand Faith, like what the heck has gotten into her? Does she not understand I dont want a birtday party? whyyyyyyyy? groaning I grabed the 3 bottles and made my way back upstairs.
I sat back on my bed and noticed Faith wasn't there.
"She went toilet" Justin said without remobing his eyes from his phone.
I handed him his drink which I had already opened downstairs and watched him chug it down. I put mine and Faith's on my bedside table, i put my legs upto my chest and wrapped my arms around them, putting my head down on my knees and heaved out a long sigh that turned into a long groan.
"London, whats wrong sweetheart?"
He'll never understand how he makes me feel with that one word. I groaned again. im so messed up im getting giddy cause my bestfriend just called me sweerheart. I need help.
"I don't want a party Jay, I know why Faith wants to do this. She wants to find a guy cause she's trying to get over, you know, but i don't want a party. I don't like the attention heck i don't even think my parents would allow it. I just want a simple sleepover and maybe we could go eat out. That's what i would like. It's my birthday that's what I want."
Well that felt good.
Justin just looked at me shocked flickering his eyes behind me.
I followed his eyes and slowely turned around already knowing what's to come. I turn to a hurt looking Faith.
Shit.
"Look, Faith" i scrambled up blocking her from the door before she could go.
"I appreciate everything and i mean everything you're doing for me, i swear. But i just don't want a party, I'm guessing you heard what i said just now and i swear-"
"No London, I'm sorry. I should of recpected your decisions and-" she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. When she opened them the hurt was gone and she smiled a heart warming smile.
"I heard italian food is proper good and there's this new italian restaurant just half an hour from here" She beamed.
I laughed and hugged her.
"Thanks for understanding" I said as i pulled away.
"Well glad that's done. I gotta run, Kyle wants me" Justin said.
We hugged and said our byes and he left.
I turned to see Faith laying on my bed facing the ceiling with her arms on her belly.
I did the exact same.
"Hey London, what happened to you and justin? I still can't put my head around it"
Ahh that stung. I'd rather not speak about it.
"I guess i wasn't good enough"
"But you're still friends?" She furrowed her eyebrows.
"Yeah he still wants to be friends, doesn't want to loose me, he claims"
Me and Justin have known each other since kindergarten, we were always bestfriends. But when the hormones kicked in at 14, i guess we developed feelings for eachother. He found some balls on my 16th birthday and asked me to be his girlfriend and of course I said yes, I was head over hills for him. We were together for a year and a half. Through out the relationship he cheated on me twice and i forgave him both times. But when he stood me up one night to go out with this other girl who he ended up sleeping with, I broke all of it off. I guess i saw it coming. Where's the trust? He didn't want me out of his life completely so now we're just friends. But that was 5 months ago.
I'm over it.
You might be thinking why would he cheat?
I didn't want to have sex.
It sounds stupid i know, I'm still a virgin but i was scared.
I guess guys can't handle not having sex, he loved me i know he did but he needed that extra bit of attention that i couldn't give. It was my fault he cheated.
Since then we've been good friends, he doesn't act awkward at all. He still sleeps around. He is a player after all.
"You know, if it wasn't for you i would of gone for justin ages ago" Faith said laughing but looking deep in thought.
"My feelings for him are all over the place Faith. I still want him but"
I took a deep breath, trying to get the words in my brain out of mouth withot it sounding cliché.
"- it's not a game. He doesn't feel the same anymore, he's moved on. I'm trying to move on too but i need someone for that to work."
I turned to look at Faith.
"Faith, you need to find someone. You've been single for a year now"
"If i could, i would date a guy too, but guys in our school are all pussys and players"
"True, true" I stated.
"Well anyway lets go sleepover shopping" she winked, laughing.
I laughed too, man she loves spending money.
So we went out to the closest grocery store and brought all the things needed for a sleepover.
I'm inviting 5 boys and 4 girls for the sleepover and to eat out.
Girls
Faith
Sonny
Lilly
Ella
Boys
Justin
Blake
Evan
Kyle
Callum
I'm finally feeling a good 19th coming.
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-Ray💕
