Poetry for the Sad

Poem 16~

Things I wanted to say but never actually could:
1. When we first met i found you cute, then you opened your mouth and became the cockiest person I ever met.
2. When we were paired up for a project I was dreading the idea from the start, then somewhere along the way instead of being cocky you were simply funny and witty. It impressed and made me like you slightly more.
3. Knowing how much we had in common startled me and from then on I kept going back to you, as did my mind, as well as my soul, and as did my intentions because how could someone as wonderful as you be in my life.
4. When we initially began to talk I never fully knew if you liked me, and so the longer you waited to ask for my number the lower that my hopes got, because despite us sharing so many interests maybe I, as I previously have been told, wasn't good enough for you. And when you finally asked for my number I exploded with joy so much that I smiled for the rest of the day.
5. The time we went to go see Wonder Woman™ not only was it the first official date, whether or not you want to count it, that I've ever been asked on, it was also one of the best because you supported my commentary throughout the movie, I felt I could stare at you without it being too weird, and when you held my hand I felt as though I want to cast into a sea of emotions, but I wasn't yet drowning, rather the sea was supporting me and keeping me safe.
6. A year after my first heartbreak you came along and give me my second one. We weren't officially dating but this heartbreak hurt me more because I know we could've dated, because I know we could've been more than just friends, because I know the reason that we ended my fault because I couldn't give you the time of day.
7. I think I loved you. no I'm not just saying this because "how can someone have their heartbreak without love" because someone can. I'm saying this because I would wait in anticipation for your texts, when I saw your name pop up on my phone screen the world seemed so bright, despite anything that had happened that day, I snuck out and lied just so I could see you, I was so emotionally invested in you.
8. Your chapter in my story has come to a close, and I couldn't be any more devastated.

-{G.M}